Honey, you promised me
to try to find me if I get lost
You said you loved me
I'm losing the ability to speak
I can't remember my name
My body's crumbling underneath all those sounds
Why don't you say anything?
Or are you just a figment of my broken mind?
I'm dancing and my feet are bleeding
I'm wearing my mother's old dress
with an ugly floral pattern
I haven't eaten anything all-day
and I'm just waiting for you
I missed the subway and the next one's coming
Only when you're able to come
to look me in the eye
The lamps are burning a hole in my face
oh, I wish the sun would break into a million pieces
your mother used to tell you
not to talk to strangers
But you've alienated even yourself
Your knee is bleeding
You're begging God for forgiveness
when you kiss the boy next door
And then you look at people on the street
What's it like to live without thinking?
You wonder when you see them mindlessly
shopping, eating, walking, talking, drinking.
You're tired and fed up
and you wish it was all over
I'm still waiting at that bus stop
wondering if it wouldn't be better
to just disappear
Like I was never here
Burn all those goodbye letters
and just be okay with the fact
that it's not going to get better
and that I was playing hide-and-seek
with someone who forgot
to come looking for me.
