Fly me to the moon (Kaworu Nagisa x Shinji Ikari)

Understanding: 6

At break time Shinji began to search the yard for the boy "Hey Shinji what are you doing?" Toji asked along with Kensuke. He flushed a little embarrassed "u-uhm i lost something here a while ago, you guys go ahead, ill find you when I'm done."

"Alright then, we're gonna sit on the roof today so you know where we are." The 2 began to walk off. Phew that was close he thought, but why couldn't he just tell them the truth. He pushed it aside and focused on finding his pale friend, he wasn't sat by the tree again, he must be somewhere else Shinji concluded.

He began to wander the yard checking all the common hangout spots and benches, but he was nowhere to be seen. Defeatedly Shinji began walking back towards the entrance and back inside, but out the corner of his eye was a pale blur along the wall of the door, if he hadn't had taken another look he wouldn't have even noticed he was there, he blended in perfectly with the white wall. Shinji stiffly reversed out of the door and took a long anxious look at the boy. He hadn't even noticed Shinji was standing there, staring down at the ground pulling at the grass and squishing it in his pale long fingers.

Anxiously he spoke, making sure to be loud enough not to be unheard "hey, could i sit with you?" He trembled

"Sure."

he collapsed beside the boy, it felt as thought bugs were crawling under his skin with how much he was shaking, but he was determined to stay confident and talk to this boy, and finally get his answers.

"I- i never got your name" he spoke again, he felt like he was going to vomit.

"Kaworu Nagisa."

Kaworu Nagisa, the name settled on his quivering lips. This is Kaworu Nagisa. Kaworu Nagisa. The name was a glorious hymn.

"w-well I'm Shinji Ikari." he said with more ease, he was becoming more comfortable now.

"I know." the boy, Kaworu replied

Never mind, Shinji felt his whole body tense up. How would he know my name? he thought anxiously trying to come up with an answer, I've never mentioned my name before. There is a deathly silence for a moment, until Kaworu revives their conversation again.

"Hey Shinji tell me, do you believe in god?" Kaworu turned and asked, jabbing him with his sparkly blood crescents (someone get this mf some contacts, i had to fight the urge to call them blood clots.)

Shinji thought about it for a moment but couldn't come up with an answer. "Hmm, no not really. Why'd you ask?"

"There's a thing called heaven, which deserving Lillin will go to. Those Lillin who commit sin don't, What is God's purpose in doing this? Are all Lillin really that bad? Your a good person Shinji, I don't understand, what am i really supposed doing here? do you understand Shinji?" He questioned him very seriously, as if his life depended on these answers, he looked distressed, Shinji was surprised to see that expression on such a delicate face.

Shinji was utterly lost for words, he had no idea what Kaworu was waffling on about. "No Kaworu, i have no idea what your on about."

"That's a shame, well at least I understand you."

Time skip brought to u by i don't fucking know.

Shinji sat in class thinking about Kaworu's words, what does he mean? Nothing he said made any sense to Shinji. One thing that was really pissing him off was how Kaworu spoke like he knew him, like he "understood" him. What would he know about his father just using him as a weapon for battle, the things he's had to see, all the pain he's gone through. Craving for his fathers approval yet its futile, because in the end he is never good enough, and always runs away from the reality, with his tail up his ass. What would Kaworu ever understand about that, or how he thought of himself, nobody could truly understand Shinji Ikari but Shinji.

He felt eyes burning into his head again, it was Kaworu. Could he read his mind too he? scoffed to himself. He turned around to see Kaworu in his seat happily smiling away, he couldn't stay mad looking at that face, but he had to for the sake of his dignity. Shinji held back a glare and politely smiled back. Kaworu silently worded "Walk with me." in a large Cheshire smile, Shinji could feel his heart flutter again but held it down, reminding himself of his rage. He replied with a nod and turned back into his seat, and began angrily scraping the table with a compass.

"Ehm." He turned to see his teacher had spawned at his side, with his hand out expectantly. He shamefully handed him the metal compass feeling his cheeks burn with embarrassment.

A soft chuckle emanated from behind him, which he could tell belonged to Kaworu. No one else in the world could laugh as playful and yet delicately as that, it had no trace of mock nor malice either. Shinji just wanted to get out of his seat and kiss hi-

"WHAT!"

His teacher huffed angrily "Shinji, if you cant stop being a distraction I'm gonna have to send you out." he threatened. Shinji lowered his head humiliated, he could hear Kaworu laughing his head off in the back, it was just an intrusive thought right? he gets those in the shower when the voice in his head tells him to throw his pubic hairs at the wall (this is a personal experience btw)

For the remainder of the lesson he kept his head down not wanting to embarrass himself again, he was sure Kaworu was getting a kick out of this. He could still hear him banging his head on the table like a daft clod, it wasn't even that funny in all honesty. Well at least he was laughing, Shinji was not.

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A/N: hooray we gave him his name, now i can start calling him kaworu instead of the pale boy. after this part the story slowly climaxes and gets a bit messy, well my planning is messy to say the least so god knows how this will turn out, anyway im on holidays now so i should have more time to update this so hooray im not excited for yr 11, im almost in yr 11 and still writing fanfictions how shameful, anyway i just want to fuck off and get a job and do college, im getting a part time job when im 16. Does anyone else have a job? anyone know how to apply or places that are good for my age?