No Control >> Louis Tomlinson

Panic

"Well, good evening everybody!" Liam yelled. The crowd ecstatically cheered and I smiled.

"We cannot express in words how thankful we are for you guys, and your love for us. You've done so much for us, thank you so much. We love you." Liam nodded and smiled at the audience. The girls began chanting his name, and he laughed.

We were at the Parker Arena, one of the most famous arenas of the world, performing live for around 30,000 people. It was nerve-wracking for me, especially today when I was facing so many people who might judge me even at the smallest of slips.  Panic threatened to engulf me, but I managed to keep my calm and do my bit.

This was very surprising for me, you know. never before had I been so nervous. maybe it was the humongous venue, or the massive amount of work we had put in. But still, I was really worried about how I sounded.  Every face I looked at had expectations written large on them. Wide eyed wonder, true dedication and a little bit of desire was common in the mass.

But was I truly worthy of it all? Was I going to be able to fulfill their demands?

I think not. not today. I'm not used to so many people.

"Let's give it up for Mr. Tomlinson!"  Niall looked over at me motioned to me to come in the middle of the stage.

I walked over, gripping my microphone tightly in my sweaty hands.

"Yes, Niall?" I blinked.

"How about you share your feelings at performing at one of the most famous venues of the country?" he said.

Gee, thanks for making this so easy, friend.

"Oh..okay. Well. hello, guys." I squeaked. The fans, I suppose, didn't notice anything wrong with me. They probably just thought I was tired.

"Thanks for being so generous towards us," I smiled, struggling to lend some credibility to what I was  saying. "We've had the time of our lives tonight.  We've been on this amazing ride for four years now, wish we stay strong as ever and continue in the same way." I said.

The girls cheered and began shouting my name.

And that's when everything happened.

Their voices reached my ears, but I couldn't make any sense of what they were saying.  My mind just stopped working and I stared at them blankly. I tried to close my eyes., to take a break, but my eyes wouldn't listen. I stared ahead as everything began blending in itself.

I stumbled over to the side of the stage and sat down. I couldn't comprehend what was happening to me. I was drowning in panic,  and my throat was constricted. I couldn't breathe.

The crowd was still as loud ever, chanting my name. They want to me to stand up and forget everything and perform and I can't do this anymore.

The lads finally sensed something was wrong and rushed over, and the bodyguards came over to help me stand up.  But I can't stand up. can't you see? I can't stand up.

and everything went dark.  

*Shiki's pov*

What was happening to Louis?

He just rushed something out when Niall asked him to speak, and just suddenly paled when the girls started chanting his name. He walked over to the side of the stage and sat down. He was visibly shaky and his eyes were half closed. He was breathing heavily.