Jah (XXXTENTACION fanfic)

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TW: self harm

Jahseh POV

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I have 1 more day with her. Before she moves all the way to Jacksonville. And I have no idea what to say to her. That I love her? That I can barely function without her? That every last muscle and nerve in my body wants too and will protect her from anything that ever comes her way?

But I don't. Instead I'm sitting in a fucking bathroom in a gas station somewhere in Orlando. What a waste of time to be honest. Orlando is like 3 hours away from Lauderhill. And it's gonna take me 3 hours to get back. By then It'll be 2pm. I'll only have 3 hours with her.

All I had to do was follow her parents rules, and not sneak her out at 2 in the fucking morning. And now, in 6 hours, I'll never see Kali again. Not until we're adults.

Someone knocks on the bathroom door and snaps me out of my trance. I walk out and pay for my gas. Then I drive. I race back to Lauderhill. I feel like I'm in a Death Race For Love. I manage to make it back 30 mins early. Half an hour more with Kali.

I drive to her house, and I park right outside, last minute moving trucks scattered around. I don't give a fuck what her bitch ass nigga parents say, I'm giving Kali a proper goodbye where they like it or not. I barge through the unlocked door, and go to the first room I think is Kali's. And thankfully I'm right.

Kali POV

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I don't want to move to Jacksonville. It's so weird and fancy over there. I don't belong there. I'm not made for the rich nigga life. I'm made for this life. Well, maybe not the Ex-Con high school drop out life... but the life where I can do whatever the fuck I want, meet new people every day with different backgrounds and stories. I know ow to someone from outside Lauderhill it seems like a ghetto hood but to us it's not.
To us it's freedom.

Fuck, that was well cheesey. But still kinda true.

Anyway, I'm sitting in my bathroom right now, blood oozing out my thighs. Lauderhill is where I first cut, so it only feels right to cut here for the last time. Just as I was about to cut the deepest yet, My bedroom door slammed open.

"Kali? You in here!?" It was Jahseh. I quickly pulled my pants up and ran out my bathroom. I leaped into his arms and hugged him soooo hard. I kissed him. It reminded me of the day he got out of Juvie. Fuck, that was only 2 days ago. Shit.

Jahseh didn't really say much, just a bunch of frantic 'I love you' s and 'I won't let you leave' s. God I wished he could somehow stop me from leaving.

After 20 minutes, my parents came in to make sure I was all packed. Then they went crazy. My mum went first (when she's angry she goes full Jamaican)

"O dare yu av dis nigga here! Honestly, he luk like ah fucking homeless person! He mama mussi suh disappointed eena him! An yu Kali, afta everyting yu still bring him inna fi mi home!" She yelled. My dad basically said the same thing. I just sat there, still in Jahsehs arms, not showing any emotion, just knowing I don't deserve this shit. After and hour of their constant screaming and shouting, Jah turned to me, and gave me on last final kiss.

"Call me as soon as you get to Jacksonville. I'll be wanting a full crib tour" he said, putting in a fake smile, fighting back tears. It was weird seeing the boy who beat loads of niggas up in my name so I didn't have to, in front of me trying not to cry.

And the next thing I know, I'm in the car, getting the last glimpse of the one boy I ever truly loved...
And I havent seen Stokley since yesterday night! He doesn't even know I've left for good. This is gonna be a long drive (btw it's a 5 hours drive)

Stokely POV

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"We can maybe go visit her one day?" I suggest. I can't believe Kali is gone. She's just gone. I never got to say goodbye. And I feel even worse for Jah. The love of his life, moved 5 hours away.

"It's too far, unless you have that type of money to pay for the fuel. Plus, I know for a fact her parents would tell us to go home the second we show up at the door." Jahseh said, looking at the floor, no hope in his voice at all.

I know he's right, so I just drop it. I didn't want to think about her right now, since I was gonna be up all night thinking about the goodbye I never got.