Jah (XXXTENTACION fanfic)

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TRIGGER WARNING!!!
Strong language, threatening language, don't read if you are triggered by violence

I'll make it so the chapter that follows will make sense even if you don't read this one

Kali POV

I can't lie to you, I was shit scared. You never expect someone you love to say that to your face.

But I know acting scared and panicked would only make things worse, so I simply asked 'why?'

He placed his head back into my neck, this time snaking his arms around my waist.

'Cuz they're telling me to' he whispers, his lips tickling my neck.

'Who?' I still stay calm

'I don't fucking know' he replies, trying to stop his voice breaking. 'But they're screaming at me. They're telling me to hurt you.'

My heart immediately started pounding. Voices?

I stroke his hair again, trying to calm him down. 'Shhh. It's okay. I know you won't hurt me. Deep down, you won't hurt me.' I reassure him

'How the fuck do you know that!?' His voice raised. 'You have no goddamn idea what I can do!'

Stay calm. Stay calm.

'Jahseh. Look at me. Please.' He lifts his head slightly, arms still around my waist. 'I've seen you in some of the worst times in your life. I've seen you beat niggas till they faces are unrecognisable. I do know what you can do. But I also know you. You would never lay hands on somebody who didn't deserve it.'

'But jsut last night I jumped Trippie. How the fuck do you explain that?' A single tear falls down his face.

I wipe the tear away, ignoring his slight flinch. 'Trippie deserved it. He was using me for sex, and thought he could brag about it. I'm surprised he didn't see it coming.'

'But Trip was my nigga! But something in the back of my head told me to kill him. And the scary part is, if Ski didn't pull me off him, I wouldn't have stopped untill his heart stopped.' He unwraps his arms and puts them on his head.

I place my Hand on his thigh 'Trippie Deserved it. Okay? He deserved everything he got. It doesn't matter if you wanted to kill him, what matters is that you didn't.'

He nodded slightly, hopefully taking in what I'm saying.

Jahseh POV

slowly, the shouting in my mind fades. Kali speaking to me, me being able to be close to her... it's calming.

After listening to her talk to me for a couple more minutes, the voices fade until I cba these them anymore.

My shoulders become lighter, and I no longer feel the uncontrollable urge to stab her throat out.

'What the fuck is wrong with me? Only a couple hours ago I was fine. It was just me in my head. And all I could think was how much I love you. And then we got off the bus and then all I could think about was listening to the niggas in my mind. I won't tell you what they was saying, but it wasn't nice' I tell her.

I study her face. Every detail of her couldn't be more perfect. Her body was irresistible. I just want to kiss her all over.

Normally, with other bitches, I just hit and leave. But with Kali, it's different.

I mean, don't get me wrong, if she gave me the chance I'd fuck her guts out right here right now. But I enjoy her company. I want to take my time with her, before I hit.

With Jenesis, I almost hated when she kissed me. I jsut wanted to someone to love, not to love her.

Kali made me feel so alive. And trust me, it's something I need in my life. I don't got a lot of things keeping me breathing anymore.

I gently lean back into her, kissing neck. She sighs slightly, putting her hand on the back of my head. I slide my hands carefully around her neck, and I nibble at her skin

She chuckles a bit, moving her hand to my chest, slipping my shirt off in one smooth motion.

I bite down a bit harder, and I hear her gasp slightly, arching her throat to give me more access.

My grip on her throat tightens slightly. I slide my lips up to hers, and kiss her deeply.

She kisses me back, and all of a sudden there's an unspoken urge to get rid of all the space between us.

My grip tightens once again, this time clear that when I let go there will be marks. She shifts on the bed, looking slightly uncomfortable. She still continues to kiss me, but with a caution

Come on. Do it. See how much she can take before she backs off

They have a good point. So I squeeze her throat so hard I may as well be choking her.

She struggles a bit, and pulls away

'Jah... Jah!' She reaches for my hands, trying to pull them away 'Jahseh that fucking hurts!'

I ignore her, choking her till she can't breathe, she tries to scream, but I doubt anyone can her.

Good job. Now make her go purple. You can do it. Look how easy she forgave you earlier. She's pathetic.

She is pathetic. No she's not. What the fuck am I doing? You're listening to them.

Her hands start to shake and tremble, clawing at my arms.

Suddenly, everything becomes a blur. A sound ringing fills my head, and my body feels like fire.

I don't really know what's happening now. All I can see is Stoke, Jarad and Charlton running into the room. I can faintly hear them screaming at me.

I feel their arms on me, pulling me off Kali. I swing for one of them, I think it was Charlton, but I miss. My head begins to spin, and I stumble out the room.

I grab onto the door frame, feeling like I'm gonna throw up.

And then I fall. Everything goes black, and everything goes quiet.

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