𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐘, carrington

010. i love you, im sorry

C A M I L A
february 10, 2024

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I LOVE YOU, IM SORRY
g. abrams

i feel the cold breeze makes chills run up my spine the moment i open the back door. i had no idea what time it was, i barely even knew where i was, and i had lost daph and lavender awhile ago.

as i stumble down the stairs of the deck and almost end up landing flat on my face, but someone caught me just in time.

my vision was blurry and i couldn't really tell who it was, "hey camila! i haven't seen you in forever how have you been" the man asks me. but i wasn't some random man, i recognized that voice.

it was jake webber, my ex boyfriends best friend and roommate. "hi jake, i've been chilling, it's all chill" my words start to slur as i get stood up right.

"hey are you good? how much have you had to drink tonight camila?" genuine concern starts to show on his face, or at least i assumed so since i could hear it in his voice.

"jake i'm so good right now! i'm on fireeee!" i say leaning off the wall i was using to support me, "camila where are you going? i don't think you should be going out alone right now" he starts questioning me as i walk away.

i turn back around and start walking backwards when i hit the sand, "it's chill! i'm so chill!" i shout hoping in some way it'll let him think i'm safe so he won't follow me.

i pick up some random bottle of vodka i found in the sand from the people who were partying on the beach, i came outside for some peace and quiet but it felt louder out here.

i start walking further away from the property, i just wanted to be alone. i keep taking swigs of my drink as it starts to feel more quiet around.

i didn't know if it was the alcohol in my system but i couldn't hear anything, except for the waves crashing. i lazily take off my shoes and step into the water, hoping it'll wake me up.

i take a breath of fresh air, for a moment i felt peaceful. i wasn't thinking of calvin, or carrington. i wasn't thinking about where i was or how drunk i was. all that mattered is that i was alone, with the cold breeze and water on my feet. i felt so happy, i could stay here forever.

"cami!"

no. no! no! no! no!

this isn't what's supposed to happen, carrington isn't supposed to be here.

"cami come back inside!"

i try my best to ignore him, maybe if i pretend i don't hear him he'll walk away from me, i mean he's walked away from be before.

but i know it won't work like that, "just, just leave me alone please" i say quietly, i could barely hear my voice over the waves crashing, and i'm not even sure if he could hear me. but in a way i know he did.

"camila you're drunk, please come back inside with me" he pleads not daring to move closer to me. i'm still facing away from him "just go away!" i start to raise my voice.

i can hear him sigh and start walking closer, i want to run far far away but right now for some reason i can't. "i'm not leaving you like this" he mutters and picks me up, throwing me over his shoulder.