𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐘, carrington

013. buzz feed

march 30th, 2024
C A M I L A

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DRIVERS LICENSE
o. rodrigo

you've never had chocolate like this from the willy wonka soundtrack plays loudly from my tv in my room. we were listening to my musical theater bangers spotify playlist as we get ready for our buzz feed interview, we as in me and olivia rodrigo. we were going to take the 'best friends test'

my pop up shows had been about a week ago and only made me more excited to start tour again, however what i wasn't excited for was to see calvin.

the night after my third and final LA show me and the friend group had gone out to a club, the night ended with a drunk call to carrington confessing lots of things that i should've not said.

i feel the sweat all over me, i feel so gross. but with more drinks then enough to not have a sense of control i was just trying to live in the moment. i hear so many noises but what really takes my attention is the song currently playing, YEAH! by usher.

that had been carringtons favorite song all throughout high school, whenever i hear it all i can think of is him. i turn around trying to find a familiar face but all i see is a muscular brunette making out with a petite blonde, much like that scene i saw with carrington and stacy at the halloween party.

i can't identify all the different feelings that are going through me, were all these instances sighs? do i really like calvin or do i just like that he looks, sounds, and acts like him?

that exact thought had been circling my mind ever since i met it, but i was finally ready to realize that it is something i need to think about.

i just needed air.

i stumble outside, leaving out the first door i can find, just happening to lead me into an alley. i reach my phone out of my purse scrolling through my contacts until i find his.

i don't think twice before hitting call, i needed to hear him. i hear the phone ring 6 times, before it i hear him "hey it's carrington! leave a message"

the beep rings and i start to talk, "carrington, it's me, cami. your cami. you've done so much to me, treating me like the love of your life then breaking up with me over call but i miss you so much, i can't get you off my mind no matter what i try. this whole thing with calvin too i'm not even sure if what i feel is real or i just miss you so much i'm trying to distract myself. i love you i really do. i'm sorry"

my words start to slur together at the end as the tears flow and i hangout the phone, i crouch down on the group, so i'm not actually sitting down in the alley.

i placed my phone in my purse again and put my head in my hands, sobbing, i just missed him so much

however when i woke up only became worse.

i wake up with calvin next to me, changed out of my attire from last night and mascara smudged. his back is faced towards me, sitting on the other end of the bed, he's not moving, just sitting there.

"hey calvin what's wrong" i say scooting over to him looking over his shoulder. i can feel my heart hit the floor, carrington had seen my voicemail and as a result decided to call me 3 times then leave a voice mail.

i have no idea what he said back but i know 3 calls and a voicemail must mean something, especially since i had noticed the single tea roll down his face.
"camila, was any of it true" he gazes at me starry eyed.