✓〡i love you, i'm sorry ¹ ( poetry )

xxxii. worthless extenuation

firearm - lizzy mcalpine

when the world stopped on my watch, i never even noticed

my eyes were on you, it was reckless, but i thought it wasn't

i got blindfolded by bare sight of you, outshining the sun in the morning

i stare at you, surrounded by everyone, and i feel like i am nothing

like a little cloud that looks like a joke compared to the deep blue sky

little did i know that the gorgeous facade hated her behind

you're the queen, i'm forever a peasant;

you're still here, i was never less absent

how come my best friend became my best problem?

the moment it's better is the moment it gets worse again

but there's a difference between us, i hate confrontation

while so called criticism is something you've always loved to share

others would call it insults, you call it justice, think that it's fair

just because your dad is rich you think you can lash out everywhere

well, jokes on you, because i, too, have some words for you to spare

after everything, can you blame me?

you really had me convinced that it was always about you

you were the change in my plan that i didn't know i'd want to keep

you were the exception that i wanted to get used to

but then you were the one who changed and that scared me

i can't even hate you, isn't that funny?

you seem to be just another cross in my calender now,

and i pretend it was all a casualty,

like you don't still have so much power over me