Separated

Only Hope For Us

Chapter 19:

A few weeks have passed, Ayden and I head to the hospital to see if my mom's doing okay. We're also finding out if the baby is going to be a boy or girl. I'm hoping for a girl so I can bond with her. I want to raise a daughter with the best father figure she could have.

    I looked over at Ayden, he still wasn't looking too good or even talking. I know normally something is up when he does the silent treatment or completely ignores me. The more questions I kept asking him, the more he was getting annoyed. It's almost like he was pushing away how he was feeling.

    "Ayden, whatever is going on you can tell me. I won't get upset," I say.

    "Don't get involved Cass, what's going on has nothing to do with you," Ayden says. "My parents aren't really being supportive right now and I haven't eaten in like three days. I don't need to stress you out any further."

    "Well, just remember I'm here for Ayden. I promise."

    Ayden looks over at me, he kisses my forehead and down to my stomach where the baby is. I can't wait to find out if it's a boy or girl. Ayden was hoping for a girl, he really wanted a daughter in the future.

    The hospital wasn't really that packed, so we were able to have a quick check. Dr. Ramirez puts the gel onto my stomach, everything was seen on the sonogram.

    "Congratulations you too! You're having a baby girl!"

    "No fucking way! I knew it Cass! I knew it!" Ayden was jumping up and down way too excited, he was so adorable when he did that. I started crying, I can't believe we're having a girl. Emma's gonna be really excited when she finds out.

    "I came up with the name Ayden," I say.

    "Yea? What are you thinking, Cass?"

    "I wanna name her, Madisyn Julia Hicks."

    "That's beautiful Cassie! I love you!"

    "I love you too!"

    We both started hugging each other tight.

"Oh shit, Ayden! We have to tell my mom," I whispered.

"Good call, let's go see her."

I got up quickly and left with Ayden to go see my mom. I hope she's doing okay, I know it's been a couple weeks but I'm really nervous. I heard from some of the doctors that she's been having excessive nightmares and flashbacks, I hope she isn't diagnosed with PTSD.

"Mom?" I asked while walking in through the front door. "Are you okay?"

"Cassie, dear is that you? What happened?"

"You were shot mom... You almost died," I responded.

Mom was still looking quite unwell, I wanted her to get better. I know damn well she's trying her hardest to heal, It's a pain to see her in a hospital bed. I can't see her with those scars, it makes me physically ill.

"W-what is going on w-w-where am I? W-who?"

"Mom, it's me Cassie. I told you we're in the hospital."

"I-I can't remember anything. Where's Max?"

Why is she talking about my father? No, no, no! Don't tell me she has lost her memory?! I started hyperventilating in front of Ayden. He was holding onto me close, he was trying his best to calm me down.

"No, no! She doesn't even remember me! I lost her Ayden, I fucking lost my mom!"

"Easy baby, easy! Let me get Dr. Ramirez," Ayden responds.

Ayden rushed to get Dr. Ramirez, I still was hyperventilating.

"Ms. Butterfield, could you tell me where you are?" Dr. Ramirez asks my mom.

"I-I d-don't. W-wha?"

My mom started crashing, Dr. Ramirez was calling for help. I was screaming again for my mom to wake up. Ayden was still holding onto me.

"NO MOM! MOM PLEASE! I NEED YOU!" I screamed so loud almost everyone in the hospital could hear me.

"Baby please, stop screaming! Please Cassie," Ayden begs.

The other nurses escorted us out of the room, Ayden and I were stuck waiting in the visitor room. Anxiety was running through my head again, what if my mom dies on me? If she survives again, what if she still doesn't remember me? 

A few hours passed, and Dr. Ramirez was walking towards both of us. Her expression wasn't happy at all. No... NO! NO!

"I'm so sorry Cassie, we did everything we could."

I cried even harder on my shoulder, the last thing she told me was to take care of my baby girl. How can I? I lost mom, Marla, and now I might fucking lose Ayden because of his eating disorder.

Ayden and I left the hospital with grief. The whole car ride was silent, I was even speaking and Ayden was dead silent. The pressure was making me feel like I had to puke, so I rolled down the side of my window and threw up all over the ground. I wipe my puke and lip gloss off my lips, I feel sick. No, I feel more like shit.

"Why don't you get some rest Cass? I don't want to see you like this," Ayden said.

"Okay, I'm just," I sighed, taking a breath. "I'm just so tired, Ayden. I'm tired of losing all the people I love. After all the shit I put my mom through! The last thing she told me was to take care of our daughter, I'm scared."

"You're not gonna lose me Cass! I got you."

"I know, I know you do..."

Author Notes:

Sorry for the short chapter again! Usually I make the death scenes for my characters short. R.I.P to Cassie's mom :(