Unscripted Love | Englot (GirlXGirl)

SEASON I - 1. Angelic Face

POV ENGFA

October, 2024

I never imagined I would be in this position now. My name is Engfa Waraha, 29 years old, and now I have all the success in my life.

My career skyrocketed and turned my life 180 degrees since I participated in Miss Grand Thailand 2022, where I was crowned the winner. Not long after that, I was also crowned 1st Runner-Up of Miss Grand International 2022.

My popularity has been through the roof, with tours soon after being crowned, singing, dancing, being named Brand Ambassador and Presenter for some prestigious brands, and of course, making my debut in a series in 2023.

The busyness I experience now, traveling from city to city, province to province, and even abroad, is my daily routine. But still, to this day, my heart feels incomplete even though I have almost completely fulfilled my life.

I always remember those times. When my heart 'found her' but could not have her.

Yes, her. The person I met through live streaming between Miss Grand contestants, who then became my roommate.

To this day, we still meet a lot through our work because of our strong 'Englot (Engfa and Charlotte)' the imaginary couple named by our fans. But many do not know what really happened between us behind the curtain. She is also my co-star in some series that have boomed and marked our acting career to the next level now.

Charlotte Austin remains herself, honest and elegant, yet playful, which I find cute. There among a lot of things that I liked about her.

She made my days of competing with the other girls in Miss Grand more colorful. She always gave me her utmost support, was always there for me, and vice versa. We always found each other's arms, played with each other a lot, and flirted a lot (well, mostly it was me who flirted with her in our early days). But I was just a sister to her, an older sister, and will always be P'Fa to her.

I know she doesn't like girls. She made it clear through our talks that she had never been with one, but she also didn't reject the idea of people shipping us as an imaginary couple. A famous one, If I might add.

Unlike me, who is always open about my sexuality. I have been with toms, girls, and boys, and I already know my identity. For me, no matter the gender, if I feel love, then it is love that I will follow.

But these days, I don't know why'd I prefer to be with women rather than men. Maybe it's just what my heart needs or is interested in at the moment.

However, thinking about Charlotte. There is something I always dream about in my relationship with Charlotte, that one day she could see me as more than just a sister or a friend. But days turn into months, and seasons change it has now been more than two years since we met, and nothing has changed.

We always have a strong bond though even without saying another word to each other, as many have called it a 'Red Thread' or something like that. We never denied that we loved each other, but maybe it was more of a sisterly thing for her. Sadly, not for me.

Don't get me wrong. I've tried everything to get closer to her, but she still hasn't realized that what I do for her is special. Here and there, I will drop hints, making it very clear that I am interested in her more than just in a sisterly way.

I even asked my sister, P'daad, about courting Charlotte but after some time and with our busy schedules, we began to communicate less, and perhaps that's why Englot fans might think we're drifting apart, even though that's not mainly the case.

I always wonder how everything went sideways for us just because of a misunderstanding.

Lately, we've been working together less, at least less than last year. Sometimes it's only a few live sessions on TikTok shop or attending some Miss Grand events together.