A Place in This World - A Taylor Swift Adoption Story

Seeing Negative(Disappointment)

ALRIGHT SECOND ARC!!!

TWs: anxiety attacks, cyberbullying

Notes:

- TWs will be expressed at the beginning of each chapter
- I will be playing around with pov here, will be marked/labeled
- Rose is getting her Eras Tour attendance debut guys :3

Any suggestions are chill with me!

- Luna

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TW: Panic Attack

April 25, 2023

Rose's POV

I made my way into the car. It was spacious, big enough so both me and Miss Taylor could sit next to each other but not feel cramped. I looked outside for a bit, since it had been some time since I went far from the group home. Miss Taylor seemed to type things in her phone for the most part. I looked over for a second, and when she noticed, she also looked up, smiling. "I should probably let you know," she started. "That you'll be going on tour with me. And also, we're heading off for Atlanta today. We're going straight there." My eyes widened. Already? I wouldn't even get to see home? Miss Taylor must've noticed my surprise because she quickly tried to reassure me. "You don't have to introduce yourself to anyone. In fact, you can stay in my dressing room if you want."

"Oh, that's not why I was... nevermind," I say, looking back out the window.

"No, seriously, it's okay sweetie. You can tell me if you're uncomfortable! I'm sure I can make arrangements for you to stay?" For a second, I knew what I wanted to say, but instead, I stayed quiet and looked out the window again. I tried thinking of anything. I could see Miss Taylor's face in the reflection of the tinted window. She seemed troubled, like she was trying to figure something out. Well, aren't we all lady. Wait. Why do I feel like this? I was so excited. But then I felt something else. I couldn't breathe. The car started spinning. I couldn't focus on the moving roads. Miss Taylor looked over at me. "Rose?"

"I'm fine," I wheezed out, trying to focus on whatever I could inside of the car. The guard guy looked back, but Miss Taylor told him to focus. Everything was a bit of a whirl. "Totally fine," I tried again, failing miserably.

Taylor's POV

"Hun?" I said, taking off my seatbelt and scorching over to her. She was grabbing at her chest, wheezing for air. I knew this all too well. This seemed like a panic attack. "Breathe. Rose, breathe. Can you hear me?" I said, rubbing her back in an attempt to get her to ground her. I felt her hands try to reach out to me. "I'm right here sweetie. Breathe." Colin, my guard and driver, had pulled over now. He looked at me for instructions. I signaled for him to wait. I helped her outside, letting her breathe the air from outside. Granted, New York City isn't the cleanest, but maybe being in the car was making it worse for her. She started regulating her breathing, slowly. She was taking gasps of air, holding it in, then breathing out. "You've got this, breathe." I crouched down so that she could see my face if needed. Her eyes fluttered open, and she breathed and looked at me. It took a couple of seconds before she was breathing normally, but her face was bright red of embarrassment. She looked away, sniffling. "Kid?"

"I'm sorry," she said. "If you want to take me back, I'll understand."

"Rose, what are you talking about? This is normal. You aren't some sort of broken piece of merchandise to return." She sniffled, wiping her nose and looking back. "Look at me. You know what happened to me between 1989 and reputation, right?" She nodded. I didn't want to make this about me, but I didn't know how else to make her feel like she was in a safe spot. "I've gone through this so many times. You can tell me anything if you ever feel like it's too much." She nodded again.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Of course, kid."

"How'd you get over it?" I smiled, rubbing her back again. I opened my arms, offering a hug. She accepted, and I hugged her as I replied to her.

"I took life one day at a time. One day at a time, one step at a time, until I could breathe again." She smiled as she released the hug with me. "Alright. Ready to hit the road?" She nodded. "Alright. You hungry? You need food to survive," I reminded her and myself to eat after what happened all those years ago. She nodded. "Alright. Colin, take us to a Subway, please." Rose grinned as she sat back down in her seat and buckled in. We moved towards the Subway 2 blocks away. Rose finally was able to look me in the face during the car ride.