Some one knock on my door.
I was just currently slumped on the couch in my apartment.I groaned as I heard someone knock on my door.I didn't feel like talk to anyone right now,And in the door it's keep knocking,I couldn't ignore it .I dragged my self from the couch and shuffled towards the door.I open the door having my blearly eyed
Lin:"Ayy gagi anyari sayo?alam mobang nag alala ako sayo 1 week ka ng walang paramdam tinatanong ni boss kong bakit dka pumapasok sa Cafe shop"
I let out a heavy sigh and pumunta ako sa couch at naupo,I looked exhausted and worn out because I can't sleep or eating properly in 1 week.
"Alam ko...gusto kolang mapag isa ngayun ...things have been rough.."
Sumonod naman sya saakin.
Lin:"Anong ibig mong Sabihin na gusto mong mapag isa at rough alam mo bang nag alala ako sayo hindi mo sinasagot mga calls ko at mga chat ko tas anong nangyari Dito apartment mo mukhang binagyo"
I stared up the ceiling for a moment trying to find the words to explain what just happened.
"Im sorry for ignoring your call and chat I just can't deal with anyone right now"
Lin:"Eh bakit nga kasi...."
"Niloko nya ako"
Lin:"a-ano niloko ka ni Kairos?
Tumango ako sa kanya .
"It turns out everything....., thought we had..... wasn't real it was all game to him...Hindi nya ako minahal...ginamit nya lang ako at niloloko nya lang pala ako whole time"
"Ang Tanga Tanga ko....Akala ko he really cared about me,pero laro lang pala sa kanya Ang lahat,Hindi ko alam kong bakit naging Tanga ako ,naging bulag sa katutuhanan.Alam mo ba yung pinaka worst part...I still love him,sa lahat ng ginawa nya saakin hindi ko parin maalis sa puso ko yung pag mamahal ko sa kanya ,it's like this stupid heart of mine just won't listen to my brain....."
She sit beside me and I feel her hand rob on my back.
Napahagulgul ako.The weight of everything have been bottling up inside me finally coming out.
"I just can't believe I was just so stupid. binigay ko lahat sa kanya,puso ko,yung trust ko,lahat lahat and he just threw it all away like it was just nothing" Sobbing.
Lin:"That jerk how dare him na lokohin ka kapag talaga Makita ko talaga yun kahit anak pa yun ng mafia kakatayin ko talaga yun ng Buhay....tumigil kana sa kakaiyak mo Hindi sya worth it sa mga luha mo"
"Gusto ko naman e ..kaso ayaw tumigil nitong taenang luhang to"
Lin:"Alam Kona para dka mag mokmok Dito"
I looked at her my eyes was slightly red puffy from crying but I listen to her.
"Ano naman yun?"
Lin:"Sama ka saakin Mamaya sa club may across dress party kasi yung mga kaybigan ko don"
"Party?Across dress?"
Tumango sya saakin.
Lin:"Hindi moba alam yung across dress ,it's just that mag sosoot ka ng pambabae ,babagay naman sayo yun kasi mukha babae atsaka mas okay yun kisa mag mokmok ka Dito"
I considered lin suggestions. Going out it's better than sitting around here feeling sorry for my self and dressing up could be fun distraction at least for a night.Nag dress naman ako dati sa school event pero isang beses lang yun.Pinusan ko naman mga luha ko.
"Ahm okay"
Lin:"Yan dapat para naman dka mag kulong Dito Hindi sya worth it"
"Anong Oras ba?"
Lin:"7 pm chat ko nalang sayo mamaya kong saang bar".
Tumango naman ako sa kanya
{Time skip}
I arrived and spotted lin at the entrance
Lumapit ako sa kanya.
"I'm sorry medyo na late ako traffic kasi atsaka medyo masikip tong dress Nato" Sabi ko sa kanya with self consciously.
Tinignan naman nya ako up and down.
Lin:"Z-zein?"
Tumango ako sa kanya a bit under lin gaze feeling a bit self conscious.
"Does it look okay?" I asked. Smoothing the dress nervously.
Lin:"Gagi Ang Ganda mo!!! Grabi "
"Hindi naman ...kinabahan nga akong mag soot nito Lalo na sa public" nervous tone.
Lin:"Gagi kinabahan kapa Nyan hah grabi Ang Ganda mo halos Hindi kita makilala...sabi Kona ngaba bagay sayo mag dress at mag soot ng wig Mukha Kang Hindi lalaki grabi Mukha ka talagang babae Ang sexy mo miii ayy ngapala andon na sa loob mga kaybigan ko.
"Wait lang...bakit you only wearing jacket and jean?"
Lin:"Natural across dress nga diba yung mga babae mag sosoot lang ng pang lalaki like that ba alam mo pasok na tayo sa loob hinihintay na nila tayo pakilala kita sa mga kaybigan ko" sabay hila nya saakin sa loob ng club.
As we entered the club ,the music and atmosphere enveloped them,the place was really crowded with people dancing and drinking.I look around feeling a bit out of place and feeling nervous my thier gaze.
A few people in the club was staring at me.i swalled trying not too look nervous.lin wave and lead me where her friends .they are 7 people 4 of them wearing dress and and the three of them was wearing like lin.
Lin:"Guys ito pala yung sinasabi kong kaybigan ko si zein,zien mga kaybigan ko ngapala"
I looked up to them ,feeling a bit nervous.i smiled and nodded unsure of what to say .
Lin:"yung mga naka dress mga gay pala Sila" bulong nya saakin.
Lin friends smiled at me.
"You look great in that dress you have a true beauty by a girl" sabi nong isang friend ni lin
Lin:"yun nga sabi ko sa kanya e"
{Few hours}
The night progress and the drink started to flow on me .I was feeling a bit tipsy and carefree now. The alcohol dwilling in me. The music was loud and the atmosphere was electric and I found my self dancing having fun time dancing and laughing with lin friend. I forgotten I'm broken and the reason I was even here.
I stumbled off the dance floor feeling a wave of wash over me.i clutched my stomach trying to keep my balanced.
I made my way through the crowded, desperately nag hahanap ng cr,I could feel the alcohol stirring in my stomach.kaylangan ko ng pumunta ng banyo gosh ansakit ng ulo ko ,para akong nahihilo ,nakahawak ako sa ulo ko at tyan ko
But suddenly someone pulled me in the dark room
