Guilty | Woosan 18+

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He had pushed me away again. He does this over and over and over again. And I somehow understood why yet I wasn't a patient man. I didn't like when someone tried to push me away right when I wanted him.

And I did. I really wanted him. And no one would ever dare to take this boy away from me. But I needed to keep my distance since he was slowly making me feel something that I've never felt before.

Yes, I was a jealous man, very jealous. But the things I felt when Felix even looked at him made me realize that there's more than that. There was clearly more than simple jealousy. Although I knew what it meant to fall in love - this was different, very different.

I grabbed my cellphone and called Mingi like I did so often when my head hurt and my mind went blank because of the fire in my veins. "Mingi?" I said as soon as the noisy tone was cut off. The other one only answered with a quick "San?"

I grabbed the box that was filled with cigarettes that was placed right next to my bed. I surely smoked too much at that time yet I didn't care anymore. I was stressed and needed it.

I opened my window just to see Felix and Wooyoung standing right in front of the house, close to each other. For my liking too close. "Still there?" I heard Mingi say whereupon I only mumbled something.

Mingi seemed to wait for my orders. He wasn't patient either but a lot more than I was. My eyes followed the scene right in front of me. Felix seemed to convey his message to him by cupping his little face with his hands. My blood already boiled. I furrowed my eyes brows and started light the first cigarette.

I had the bad feeling that I'd empty that box today. "What happened, San? I am asking you as a friend. You act strange and I don't mean your usual strange" Mingi pointed out and even though I didn't want to have a damn therapy session with my best friend now, I knew that I had to tell him one day either way what happened

I shook my head, ready to yell something downstairs just to make Felix take a step back. It almost looked like the two of them made up yet Wooyoung's face told me otherwise. He didn't look happy at all. And he surely didn't enjoy the touch.

"Felix found out and kicked Wooyoung out. I wanted to leave with him, drive him home at least but he refused pushing me away once again. He's driving me insane. I don't understand him" I said, my voice low and angry but in fact I just wanted to hide my sadness.

Mingi sighted. He seemed to think for a moment before he finally gave me an answer. "He's overwhelmed. He just lost his boyfriend and also a friend of his. He probably didn't expect your secret to come out this quickly. Don't take his actions too serious right now" Mingi explained to me.

Somehow he was right. Wooyoung pushing me away didn't mean that he didn't like me. It also didn't mean that we couldn't start from scratch. Maybe I should just let him leave like that. But I wasn't Choi San if I wouldn't be absolutely jealous and impatient.

"You're probably right..but you also know me. I let him leave like this but Mingi-" I made a little pause. "Send my man to his house. At least two of them. Place one of the black vans in front of his house" I said in a stern tone to signalize Mingi that our little talk was over now.

I wasn't Choi San if this entire scene in front of me didn't bother me. No one would enter his house without me knowing. Things just go well, I am in control. At least for me.

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Short chapter but it'll make sense 🥹
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