Guilty | Woosan 18+

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W o o y o u n g.
One drink, another drink, another drink. My body was already warmed up and full of energy. The music was loud and the people were in a good mood. I was full of — ugh, who was I fooling again? Yeah, myself. I wasn't full of joy and excitement. Actually I didn't feel excited one bit since my body left the beautiful village Felix had brought me to.

I've heard from him. Not from San but from Felix. He was willing to try it again. And when I said 'it' I meant our relationship or whatever it was. But I wasn't too sure about it. Every time I thought about Felix, I automatically thought about his cousin, Choi San. The man who made me speechless just a week ago.

My thoughts were messed up. I couldn't even focus on my upcoming exam. There was no space for any lecture nor sticky notes that should live in my head rent free by now. I wouldn't pass this exam if I didn't study by now. I wasn't heartbroken, but I also wasn't happy.

"What's that sad face about?" I heard a voice behind me say. Niki, one of my college friends looked at me with a concerned facial expression. His face got enlightened by the club's hectic flashes. Why did we go to a techno club again? The bass made me feel like I was numb but I somehow understood what the other was saying

"I don't know" I lied and tried to force an emotion out of my body. No one should notice that I didn't feel well. I actually didn't feel well for days now. The entire time I felt like I had to force a smile in order to fit in.

Another drink made its way into my hand. The nice barkeeper who apparently had an eye on me gave me another one on the house making me question how many he was able to give away for free. I surely wasn't the first one he did this with but whatever. I wouldn't question it.

The fruity drink made me feel some type of way. I thought it would make me forget about everything that happened but I was entirely wrong this time. It made me think about a certain someone too much and I didn't talk about Felix.

"I'll leave..I don't feel too well" I yelled at my friend whereupon he looked at me worriedly. He desperately wanted to join me on my way home but I only shook my head and nicely declined his offers. There was no way I wanted company tonight on my way home.

Maybe I'd just call an Uber or a cap. Or maybe I'd just go on a walk all by myself. Time to think about what happened, which I did anyways.

I left the club making sure that none of my friends followed me. I wanted to be alone this time and I didn't even mean that I a mean way. I just wanted to think.

The cold air hit my face and body making me shiver for a second. I totally forgot that it was almost minus degrees outside, and I was also usually a person who felt chilly very quickly. Not the best weather for a black silky button up.

I crossed my arms and prayed not to die from the cold I'd catch now. I already felt my immune system scream for help. Lord, I should've brought a jacket with me. But who did that when going to the club?

I wanted to grab my cellphone in order to call myself an Uber but stoped to move when I saw a certain person right in front of me. I immediately started to feel tipsy and my heart jumped in the air when I saw whose muscular figure it was.

He was so much more handsome than I imagined him to be. I remembered him in his suit or his button ups, but not in this some sort of gym outfit that consisted of loose joggers and a black skin tight gym shirt that made me gulp.

His hair was messy yet perfect. He looked like he was just busy working out but somehow he looked like he already showered and his great musky perfume met my nose within seconds. I somehow remembered his scent very well.

How he stood there. Tall and handsome, only dressed in a gym shirt but not freezing at all. As if he didn't care about anything. Not about his surrounding, not about the weather, not about other people staring at him because he was so handsome.

"San" I said his name clearly but still softly. I wasn't able to move, not an inch. He was so handsome and good looking that I felt like he could immediately turn on every single guy and girl in the club. Everyone who walked past us was already drooling over his body.

"Need a ride?" he asked me as if it wasn't completely off guard that he simply stood in front of the club I was partying at in the middle of the night dressed like a handsome personal trainer. My jaw maybe dropped but I somehow didn't loose the words I wanted to say

"No, I'll walk home but thank you" I tried to cut him off. I tried to leave, leave immediately before my heart would notice how much feelings I had left for this man. Avoiding the person you liked was easy. It was a good way to hide what you really felt. But then seeing him in person again - I was fucked.

My heart was pounding. My body felt a warmth I couldn't describe. I wanted this man. I wanted him badly. My head told me to leave but my body begged me to stay.

"You won't, Wooyoung. It's dangerous and besides that it's very cold. You'll come with me" San said in a now very strict and demanding tone, which did surprise me in fact. I gulped heavily. It was in fact very cold and I would most definitely get a cold if I'd walk home but I didn't care since San wouldn't be able to control me again.

Not that he did. And not that I didn't like it when he showed his some sort of possessive side but I couldn't stand being close to him. My body wanted me to beg him to kiss me, which was so wrong since Felix wanted to try it again with me...

"You can't just appear out of nowhere and expect me to just follow your lead! I want to walk on my own" I almost yelled at him and I was pretty sure to see a hint of surprise in his face but the CEO surely didn't want me to speak up so much

He shook his head, denying what I just said and got closer and closer until I had to look up to see his eyes. "Don't test my patience" he whispered, only so loud that I could hear it.

He will hunt me. He will hunt me down this dark path and I wasn't mad at it. I wanted this. I chose this cat and mouse duet myself the second I got involved with him.