Guilty | Woosan 18+

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W o o y o u n g.
I felt numb. Why did I think I could hide this secret from anyone? Why did I think I could simply keep this lie? I couldn't even escape this house since the snowstorm painted the environment white. There was no escape. I had to face the consequences of my actions.

"Wooyoung" I heard San say my name softly, probably because I didn't move for a few seconds. I didn't even want to face him. Did he know that she'd search for us? "N-No" I whispered, still in shock.

My heart clenched when I thought of Felix potential reaction. I didn't mean to hurt him. I acted like a narcissist and didn't care about his feelings. But now I feared how hurt he might be once he'd find out what we did.

I couldn't look at San. I wasn't able to look him in the eyes anymore. I felt like a fool, so ashamed and unliked. I took a shaky breath and shook my head. "I-I don't know what to do" I whispered. The urge to simply run away rushing through my body, making me feel horrible. 

"It'll be okay. We will figure it out" San said and tilted his head a bit. I finally looked up to him. My eyes meeting his. The sparkly still there but the feeling of guilt rushed through my body. So many thoughts on my mind. So many regrets but also so many simply beautiful moments that I couldn't deny I enjoyed.

At that moment I realized that I only had one option. Face the consequences of my own actions. Because there was no way I would've gotten out of that house without facing Felix. He was in there and we needed to face him any moment.

"B-but I can't even leave. Look at the snow- a-and Felix took me here. I can't even.." I stuttered and looked at the opened door. Another breeze hit my face, making me feel the urge to wrap my arms around myself.

San noticed that I felt cold and walked over to the front door just to close it for a moment. He turned around to face me again and got closer. His sinful scent met my nose and I tried to stay as calm as possible in order to not make things even worse.

"Listen, you're in shock right now I see. But everything will be okay. I will take you home as fast as I can, alright? Once the snow melts, I can easily leave with you" he tried to make sure that I heard every word but I wasn't even able to listen. I couldn't focus.

I got here with Felix, the man I thought was my potential partner for a long time and I'd leave with another man, his cousin to be exact, who was his worst enemy. A man who was cruel and cold but also loving and caring when it came to..me.

"Thank you but let's simply just face Felix. I can't wait anymore or else I'll go insane" I whispered in a hurt tone and looked down, still ashamed and slightly angry. San nodded without saying anything else and we calmly walked to the door. The taller opened it for me and helped me to step over the crunchy snow that laid right in front of the hut

San walked right behind me, making sure that I wouldn't fall. His hand was placed on my back the entire time, walking me through the high snow. I looked over my shoulder. The other looked calm, a bit cold but calm, his usual face.

But now that I knew him better, I saw a tiny bit of worry in his face. I bit my lip nervously.

We entered the main house again. A warmth his my cold face when we stepped into the cozy warmth. I looked down at first but I had to rise my gaze since I felt a pair of eyes on me.

It was Felix. He stood in the middle of the living room. Anger written all over his face. He first looked at me, sadness, anger, madness, fear, pain. I gulped heavily and only whispered his name underneath my breath "Felix" I said

He shook his head as if he didn't want to hear my voice. Then his eyes went to San and suddenly his face only showed anger, pure anger. Maybe even hate.

The living room was empty and I assumed trust Felix had told everyone to go upstairs in order to talk to us. I looked down in order to avoid his gaze but I couldn't. It was cruel to think that I was able to keep all of this as a secret - and now I had to face my mistakes.

"What did he do to you? Did he force you?!" Felix suddenly began to yell and me with a tone in his voice that I've never heard before. It was so loud that my ears began to hurt and I squeezed my eyes together for a moment before I somehow managed to open my mouth.

"It's not like that" I whispered and shook my head with tears in my eyes realizing what I've done. Felix walked over to San, attempting to grab his collar but San, who was most definitely taller and much stronger than him, immediately grabbed him instead pushing him away

Felix eyes widened from the quick action, maybe even regretting that he attempted to hurt San. "Don't you fucking dare. Act like a fucking grown up" he whispered in a tone that made me get the shivers all over my entire body. Every single word sounded like a warning. And Felix did react to it by taking one step back

He suddenly turned around to face me, my watery eyes suddenly went dry and I gulped when our gazes met again. His eyes sparkled in anger but also in sadness. "How could you do this to me?! I mean, that he acts like this isn't something I didn't know but you? You're not like that, Wooyoung." He shook his head

My mouth went dry. I didn't know what to answer. That San did something like we did didn't surprise him? Did San do this before? What was the reason he thought like that?

"Felix, I am sorry. I really am but I can't deny that I have-" my eyes traveled to San. I can't admit my feelings, not yet. It too early, too messed up, too stressful. I shook my head. "I am sorry" I ended my little speech, not admitting my feelings for the man right in front of me.

San looked at me with a coldness on his facade that made me feel dizzy. He expected me to say something. He expected me to admit my feelings for him, right in front of Felix.

Did I just let him down? But how could he expect me to say these words out loud even though we only knew each other for such short time.

Felix ears turned red because of the anger that rushed through his body like a storm. "If you believe that San truly has feelings for you, I have to let you down, Wooyoung. He doesn't. He's a womanizer and a player and you shouldn't believe any fucking word that comes out of his filthy mouth" Felix spat these words out like dirt and looked down for a second as if he had to regenerate

My eyes traveled to San. I shouldn't believe a fucking word he said? Was there actually something about it? Was Felix right and San faked those feelings in order to hurt his rival, his cousin.

"You don't know a fucking thing about me so shut your mouth" San spat out, in a calm and cold manner. His deep voice made him sound even more cold and angry. I took a shaky breath and walked over to the stairs.

"I'm really sorry Felix. I-I'll pack just up my things and call myself an Uber. I'll leave immediately" I mumbled and walked upstairs as quietly as possible feeling ashamed and dirty now that everyone in this house knew what I did.