A Love so far (Taehyung ff)

14) ignorance

Same day at night taehyung's apartment

Taehyung's eyes fluttered closed, his mind surrendering to the allure of sleep. But as he drifted off, his subconscious took hold, weaving a tantalizing dream. He found himself standing in a moonlit garden, the soft grass beneath his feet. Yn appeared before him, her eyes shining like stars. Without a word, she reached out, her hand brushing against his. The touch sent shivers down his spine, and he felt himself drawn to her. They strolled through the garden, their fingers intertwined, the air thick with an unspoken understanding. As they walked, the scenery shifted, and they found themselves in a cozy, candlelit room. Yn's face was inches from his, her breath whispering against his skin. Taehyung's heart raced, his pulse pounding in his ears. Without thinking, he leaned in, his lips meeting Yn's in a tender, exploratory kiss. The world around them melted away, leaving only the gentle pressure of their lips, the soft sighs, and the thrumming of their hearts. Yn's hands roamed his chest, her fingers tracing the contours of his muscles. Taehyung's skin burned beneath her touch, his desire igniting like a flame. He deepened the kiss, his tongue dancing with hers, their mouths moving in perfect sync. As they kissed, their bodies drew closer, their skin touching, sending sparks flying. Taehyung's hands cradled Yn's face, his thumbs tracing her cheeks, his fingers tangling in her hair. He felt her nipples harden beneath her shirt, and his own arousal grew, pressing against his pants. Yn's hands drifted down his back, her fingers tracing the curve of his spine. Taehyung shivered, his skin sensitive to her touch. He felt her fingers brush against his hips, and his heart skipped a beat. In the dream, they surrendered to their passion, their love shining bright. Taehyung's hands roamed Yn's body, tracing the curves of her waist, the swell of her hips. He felt her skin, soft and smooth, inviting her to explore.

Taehyung's eyes snapped open, his heart racing from the vivid dream. He lay in bed, trying to calm his racing thoughts. He had never dreamed of YoonA like that before, but Yn's face  . He felt a mix of emotions: guilt, anxiety, and longing.
He threw off the covers and got out of bed, pacing around his room. He couldn't face Yn now, not after that dream. He was afraid of what he might do, how he might react. He needed time to clear his head, to regain control.
"I should stay away from her for a few days," he thought, trying to convince himself. "I'll make a mistake if I see her now." He knew he needed space to process his emotions, to figure out what was happening to him.
But as he walked to the window, he caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror. His eyes looked haunted, his face twisted in turmoil. He knew he couldn't avoid Yn forever. He needed to confront his feelings, to find a way to move forward without hurting her or himself.

Taehyung's phone buzzed on his desk, Yn's name flashing on the screen. He hesitated, his thumb hovering over the answer button. But he couldn't bring himself to pick up. Not now, not after last night's dream.
He had been trying to shake off the lingering feelings all morning, throwing himself into his work to distract himself. But Yn's call only made him feel more anxious.
He let it ring, watching as the call went to voicemail. He felt a pang of guilt, knowing he was avoiding her. But he couldn't face her, not yet.
Taehyung immersed himself in his tasks, trying to numb his mind. He attended meetings, responded to emails, and made phone calls, all the while trying to push Yn out of his thoughts.
But his mind kept wandering back to her, to the dream, to the feelings he couldn't quite suppress. He felt like he was losing control, like his emotions were spiraling out of control.
As the day wore on, Taehyung's exhaustion grew. He had been running on adrenaline and guilt, trying to outrun his feelings. But he knew he couldn't keep this up forever.
Eventually, he would have to face Yn, to confront the emotions he was trying so hard to deny. But for now, he just needed a little more time, a little more space to clear his head and regain control.

Yn's pov

Yn's eyes drooped as she stared at her phone, Taehyung's ignored calls and unanswered messages piling up. She felt a knot in her stomach, a mix of emotions swirling inside her. She had thought they were getting closer, that he might finally see her in a different light.
But now, she wondered if she had misread everything. Had she hurt him by pulling away from the kiss? She couldn't shake off the feeling that she had lost him, just like she had lost Nish.
Memories of her late husband flooded her mind, the grief still raw and tender. She had thought she was ready to move on, to find love again. But now, she felt like she was losing Taehyung too.
Yn's thoughts raced as she replayed their interactions, wondering what she had done wrong. She had been hesitant, unsure of her feelings, but she hadn't meant to hurt him.
As the day went on, Yn's anxiety grew. She couldn't concentrate on work, her mind consumed by thoughts of Taehyung and what she might have done to push him away.
She felt like she was losing herself, like she was stuck in a never-ending cycle of grief and longing. She had thought Taehyung might be the one to help her heal, but now she wondered if she had been foolish to hope.
As the sun set, Yn's tears finally fell, her heart heavy with sorrow. She felt like she was losing everything, like she was drowning in her own emotions. She didn't know how to reach out to Taehyung, how to make things right. All she could do was wait, hoping that someday he might forgive her and give her another chance.

Yn poured her heart out to Ana, her voice trembling as she recounted the events. "I feel like I've lost him, Ana. I was hesitant, and now he's avoiding me. I don't know what to do."
Ana listened attentively, her expression empathetic. "Yn, you can't blame yourself. Taehyung's feelings are his own. Maybe he's just processing everything."
"But what if I've hurt him too much? What if he can't forgive me?" Yn's eyes welled up with tears.
Ana took Yn's hand, offering a reassuring squeeze. "You have to give him space, Yn. And yourself too. You've been through so much already. Don't give up hope yet."
Yn nodded, feeling a small sense of comfort. "I just wish I knew what to do, Ana. I feel so lost."
Ana smiled softly. "You'll figure it out, Yn. And I'll be here for you, no matter what."

Tae's pov

Taehyung's eyes dropped, his gaze fixed on the floor as he thought about Yn. He had been ignoring her, avoiding her calls and messages, all because of his own confusion. The intimate dream, the kiss, it had all left him reeling.
He felt a pang of guilt for shutting her out, for not being honest with her about his feelings. He had been so caught up in his own emotions, his own fears, that he hadn't considered hers. He thought about how she must feel, confused, hurt, and rejected.
Taehyung's mind replayed their moments together, the way she had looked at him, the way she had smiled at him. He realized that he had been unfair to her, that he had led her on without being clear about his intentions.
He thought about his dream, the way he had imagined her, and he felt a flush rise to his cheeks. He had been so caught up in his own desires that he hadn't considered the consequences.
Taehyung took a deep breath, knowing he needed to make things right. He couldn't keep ignoring her, not when he cared about her so deeply. He needed to be honest with her, to talk to her, to clear the air. He would apologize for his behavior, for shutting her out, and he would listen to her, really listen, to what she had to say.