AJ Cook's daughters

Chapter 19

Sadie's POV:

I'm in my bedroom laying down in my trailer on set listening to Caleb and AJ talk. I hear Caleb knock on the door I quickly put on my headphones making him think I'm listening to music as I watch him enter the room. I watch him nervously walk over to me and sit on the bed taking my hand.

"Hey Gumdrop why don't you come out and talk to AJ?" Caleb asks me making me sigh as I shake my head

"Why should I waste my breath talking to her? She's never done anything to benefit me. She done nothing for me." I say angrily as Caleb tries to calm me down

I watch as Caleb takes a deep breath rubbing his face I can see that he is thinking as he rubs my back. I know Caleb just wants what best for me at the end of the day. I know the amount of nights he stayed with me at the orphanage to protect me from the abuse and held me as I cried about AJ to him. Once I look up to see his face I see how concerned he is I take my headphones off. I turn to look at him as I see him stop and process on what to say next. I can practically see the words swirling around in his head.

"I know you don't want or really need to talk to her. But I think you should not to benefit her but to help you and your sisters heal the resentment and anger you all have. I ain't saying you guys should forgive her. Fuck I don't think I could even forgive her if I was in your guises position. I'm just saying maybe you guys should hear her out. It might make everyone feel better in the end. Or at least make you understand her a little bit more." Caleb says as I close my eyes processing what he just said really taking in everything her just told me

"Please just promise me you will at least think about it okay? You don't have to talk to her about anything today. Fuck you do not even have to talk to her about it in a month from now. I do have to tell you something I may have told AJ a tiny white lie just a little bit to get her to leave cause I know you wanted her too. I told her that we need to get lunch before you film again. I explained to her you haven't finished all the scenes you needed to shoot today. She actually just left. Which is why I came in here to let you know that she is gone." Caleb explains to me as I nod gratefully

"I just ordered your favorite Mexican foods from that place we got too that is two blocks away from here. I'm gonna go and pick it up. I know you probably wanna relax so I'll get it myself. If there is anything you want me to pick up just message me. I am hoping by the time we finish eating the food Gaten should be done filming all his scenes. Then we can go pick up your sisters and hang out for a bit before you have to go home to AJ. I'll be right back." Caleb says kissing my cheek as I put on my best fakest smile in his direction

"Okay I really love that plan. I'm excited for us to all hang out. We're gonna have fun. It'll be the thing we all need to help us all destress. I love you." I say as I watch Caleb smile brightly as his eyes twinkle making me feel bad for faking this happiness in front of him

"I love you too so much honey." Caleb says hugging me tightly before he leaves

Once I know that Caleb has left I put my headphone back on. I look at my iPod. I put on "Creep" by The Cranberries. I don't know if I'm ready to acknowledge what AJ has to say. In all honestly I don't know if I'll ever be ready. How come she didn't keep my sisters and I? Was she that ashamed of us when we younger? She literally hasn't told anyone in her family that she has custody of us again. Why is she keeping us as a dirty little secret? Were we that hard to love? I thought she was too busy building her career to be a mom or to even care or love us. Does she even actually love us? I can't help as extreme amounts of anger starts to rise in me. She never even wanted us in the first place I realize. I am lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice the door to my trailer has opened. I look up to realize Caleb is back as he is holding the bags of Mexican food. I quickly get out of the bed not even looking at Caleb or acknowledging him as I enter the bathroom. I lock the door after slamming it shut making sure he can't come inside. I open the mirror cabinet grabbing my trusty blade the one thing to give me a sense of release from the pain in my heart and the evil thoughts that are consuming my head and my brain. I roll up my sleeve seeing all my old cuts and scars. Before I can do anything Caleb starts to bang loudly on the door before I hear him grab something out of the kitchen and as he unlocks the door before opening it wide. I freeze. Oh fuck Caleb just learned about my deepest darkest secret. I never wanted him to learn about this. The only people who even know about it are Sabrina and Maddie. I can't help but close my eyes. Is Caleb gonna tell AJ? What is gonna happen between Caleb and I now? How will AJ react if Caleb tells her?