Escapism.

3

At home I trew myself on the bed and fell asleep instantly.

"She asleep or ?" Is all I hear, before going plank.

In the morning

I woke up with a heavy head, making it hard to get out of bed.

It took me like twenty minutes to even sit up. To check my phone. My performance is at seven p.m. It's now four p.m.

"I was asleep for the whole day, what the actu-"
"Oh you awake ?" I see Jenay stepping out of the badroom, with a towel on her head.
"Why didn't you wake me up ?"
"You need to be awake at your big performance what do you mean?" She looks at me in disgust.
"You're ungreatful" she says before walking past me to walk to the kitchen.

JENAY

Jenay,

Twenty four.

Sophs "sister"

Hawaiian/Russian who grew up in Texas

Jenay is ranked as #10 in the dancing school, for simply starting to late. Even tho she was in a rhythmic gymnast team for over twenty years.

Did I mention that Zenovia hates rhythmic gymnasts ? There are many in the ballet scene.
And there are much who do ballet and rhythmic gymnastics. I mean. If they don't get much recognition and get ranked low, I would do a different sport besides that too lol.

Jenay is ranked as #10, eight times lower than me. When she should be ranked as #4.
Jenays jumps are the most beautiful jumps I've ever seen in the ballet scene. And Zenovia knows that. But she just doesn't care.

"She is a ten in rhythmic gymnastics but a four in ballet"

That's not true by the way.

Jenay is Soph's "sister" their parents are best friends. And Jenays brother is sophs boyfriend for over eight years.
Wich makes them a family like.

Jenay is my older cousin. She is two years older than me. And her Mom is my Dads sister.

I personally think that Jenay should put rhythmic gymnastics over ballet. She has way more strength in there than in ballet. And Zenovia will never take her seriously. When Zenovia is a blessing to the school and would win Gold medal if she would get the chance to.

-

As I walk towards my bathroom i see Soph making my clothes ready.
I jumped into the shower and made myself ready.

„Alora we leaving at six okay ?"
„Yes" I scream out of the shower answering to a voice.

-

Done with my shower, i make myself fresh, do my makeup as natural as I can.
Because I have to idea what make up Zenovia is going to give me.

Sitting in my room in the middle of the bed. I realize that I'm getting ready for something big I don't really wanna attend.
I mean yes there will be many many big people there, that will watch me and might make me bigger than Zenovia herself.
But...was the starving and all that worth it ?
What if I just pass out in the middle of the stage ?
What if my movements really look very unclean.

„lora please eat something" I hear my bestfriend screaming out of the kitchen. I make my way into the kitchen in complete frustration.
„OH, you look so good"
"Thank you..."

"Please eat some fries"
"I can't, I need to stay lean"
"Girl it's five thirty are you serious right now ?"
"Yes" I take a bottle of water out of the fridge and leave the kitchen.

"Lor-"
"Just leave it, maybe she will eat after the performance" I shut the door close and countined
my make up.
I'm never ever eating. Maybe not for now. When I see food, I get sick and want to trow up.
I'm five foot seven and weigh like 143 pounds...
So I need to stay in this physic for my movements to look clean and big.

Something that I was thought about for years.

After I was done with everything I take my bag to and make my way into the livingroom.
"You done?"
"Yes, let's go"

My friends stood up from the couch to take their bags.

-

In the car, I make my seat conforting to sleep a little bit while listening to my performance music.

"Big movements Alora"

"Higher jumps"

I hate Zenovia but atleast her voice is pushing me to my limits in my head to remember everything.