After five minutes we arrive at a big Park.
„And what are we doing here?" I look at him with dry eyes.
„We are going for a walk"
„Jayden...what am i doing here ?"
He looks at me in complete fear.
„you're here because i want to show you that I changed and want to be you're friend...I want to show you that I'm not the old Jayden that left you hanging in the most important time of you're life"
...
My lips start to shake.
„it's too late..."
„No it will never be too late"
„It's to late...can I go now ?"
My eyes get wet.
„Alora, please"
„Jayden you have a girlfriend, there is no need to show" I step a little bit away from him.
„I hate her but I don't want to hurt her"
„But Alora"
„Jayden you love her like I always wanted to be loved by you. So you did show me that you changed"
It's quiet
„But I can never make you feel like that again"
-
I look him deep into his eyes.
The Sunset light is brining his trough eye color to light. Wich makes it even harder to look away.
Tears form in my eyes, my lips start to trumble.
„No you can't...and it wouldn't be fair to Karoline"
„Alora-"
„Jayden no. I have no ideas what I'm doing here. Why are you trying to impress me after so many years."
„Because i-"
„To boost you're ego and get released from you're guilt"
It's quiet.
„I knew it" I turn around to walk to the streets. I call Sophie.
„What's up...how is it going ?"
„Sophie pick me up" I begin to cry.
„What happened ?"
„I'll tell you later...please pick me up"
„okay I'm on my way"
„ALORA, wait"
I hear the man's voice.
„I don't want anything to do with you...we saw eachother after a few years and now we know how our lifes are going"
...
„And as you can see my life is a complete disaster"
„No...you're life is way better than mine" he says.
„You found the love of your life..., you got a great job...you drive a nice car, you seem happy. What else ?" I wipe away my tears and look him deep into his eyes.
„The only love I have in my life is Sophie"
„No...alora"
„Jayden it's done..."
„No it's not, Alora I love you" he holds my hand, i rip my hand out of his strong grip.
„No you don't"
„Stop talking nonsense" I roll my eyes to continue my walk to meet Sophie.
„Iam serious"
„No" he walks after me.
...
I look at him in complete anger.
„Leave me alone, focus on Karoline. And don't you ever think about texting me ever again" I turn turn around to leave. I feel so miserable.
„Alora"
„Just leave it"
„Alora there is no peace in my life anymore"
„that's not my problem" I look at him, with teary eyes that seem to form even harder minute by minute.
„I really don't care, you pushed me out of you're life like I'm the one destroying you're peace"
I walk away from him again, with tears growling down my cheeks.
„You never destroyed my peace, Alora please"
„I tried to be you're peace Jayden..." I turn around again facing the young man in teary eyes and complete distress.
„You were"
„No i wasn't, the way you pushed me away. The way you treated me...like I was a peace of crap"
„I told you why"
„That was a dumb excuse"
„It was a legit reason"
„That could've been fixed Jayden"
„Alora...give me a chance"
He steps closer
„why should I ? You have a girlfriend"
„And ?"
„What do you mean and ?, are you crazy ?"
He takes another steps closer
I try to not hold eye contact.
He whipes away my tears.
I look at him, in complete confusion.
I'm dreaming or something.
He smiles a little bit.
„Jayden i-"
„Isn't that what you wanted ?"
He takes hold on my hips.
Between our faces there is only a little bit of space.
And
Our lips touch.
He presses my body harder onto mine, making it difficult to push him away from my body.
He lets go of me and looks me deep into my eyes.
„Jayden this is wrong"
He kisses me again.
He lets go and looks at me.
„Does this make you give me a chance?"
I just look at him, do I wanna go that path again?
Fuck no
Did i always thought about it and fantasized about him coming back and me taking him back ?
Yes
„You don't have to answer...you're quietness and the way you look at me gave me an answer already"
„If you think so"
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Escapism.
Romance„I didn't knew he was Karolines boyfriend" „She never told us about him" ... Twenty two year old Alora Sovora , is a amazing ballet dancer, who had a breakthrough after an amazing performance wich lead to her big start of something new in her life...
