Metallica one shots and headcannons

Coldest winter (James Hetfield one shot)

Warnings: cancer, this is sad.

It's been one year since I discovered I had cancer. I know I'm still young but I don't fear death, but I don't want to leave James alone. I love him so much and I don't want him alone. When I discovered the cancer, our world fell down. I know James is trying to stay strong, but I know he's not well. I hear him crying at night and screaming in his sleep not to leave him. How I would like to take away all this pain, he has already suffered enough. I'm in the hospital reading a book when James walks into the room.

"Hi, my love. How are you?" He asks kissing my forehead."I'm good" I say. In reality I wasn't well at all. I had vomited blood and was getting worse. But I didn't want him to know. I don't want to see him suffer more. "What good have you done with the others?" I ask him "We played a little bit but nothing special. They said they would come and see you today" he says. "Well, I miss them" I say and after 5 minutes we see them walking in "Hey Y/n, how are you?" Kirk asks me "I'm good thanks, and you" I ask "Good" he answers but he knew that I was lying. He always know when I say lies. "Y/n, I bought you some chocolate" Lars says and gives me a chocolate bar "Thanks Lars, I wanted a chocolate so much" I say giving him a hug. "I bought you a book, Y/n" Jason says and gives me the book and hug him too "Guys, you're so kind" I say "Y/n, we want you to get better. I can't wait for you to come to the studio and listen to us playing" Lars says "Let's hope I recover" I say.

Then I started feeling unwell and I saw everything black."Y/N, are you okay?" James asks but when she didn't answered he started to worry. "PLEASE CALL A DOCTOR!" he yells he started crying "Please Y/n, don't leave me. I love you so much I don't want to lose another loved person. Please don't leave me" he cried. Then the others and him stayed outside the door waiting for say something "I hope she's okay" Kirk says "I don't want to lose her. WHY HER? She doesn't deserve all this pain. Why her and not me?" James cries and Kirk hugs him "James, she's a strong woman. Please don't say that, she wouldn't want it" Kirk says but he was crying too.As the some time passed, the doctor leaves the room. "How's my girlfriend, doctor?" James asks "I'm sorry, but she didn't make it. Unfortunately, she got worse in these months. My condolences" the doctor says and everyone started crying. "N-no. No Y/n. Why did you leave me? What I can do now without you?" James says and cries. Everyone was destroyed by her loss. "Sir, she said to give you this when she would died" the doctor says and hands him a letter. James opens it and starts reading.

Hi my love. If you are reading this, It means that I died. I want to tell you that I thank you for everything. Thank you for making these years of my life beautiful together Thank you for loving me and making me smile. Thank you for being there in the most difficult moments My love, I want you to promise me something. Please don't be sad. I know it's hard but I don't want to see you crying. Smile when you think of me. I will always be by your side and I will always watch you from above. I greet you my love. 

See you

Y/n

When he finished reading the letter, he cried even more. Then he went home and lay in the bed.It was strange to sleep alone. She was no longer there but still her clothes, makeup were there. The side of her sheets smelled of her perfume. He was about to cry again but stops, he wanted to respect what Y/n had asked. He sees snowflakes falling from the window, winter had begun. And this time it would be his coldest winter.