Basils diary 🧡cactiflower💛

grandma

It's been three years now I lost my diary but I finally found it my grandmas condition got worse she can't get out of bed anymore...so I got a babysitter instead I know my grandma is going to die soon then on that day I'll die too...Kel has been hanging out with me more often at my house only though I don't really want to leave my grandma alone right now, i think i love Kel but i cant let him know it'll hurt him more when i die. -Basil

Me and Polly get along well she helps me get to sleep before I start crying and puking at night and if I do puke she makes sure to bring me some water and something small to eat she's really nice...I have a headache I don't know why but I need to cry again... -Basil

Tears stained the pages as Polly flipped through them is had been a month since she got there she thought Basil was a very sweet kid just mentally ill she thought of him as a son she couldn't let him die.

She put the diary back where it was and at dinner she subtly brought it up "so Basil do you like writing?" Polly asked "yeah a bit sometimes..." Basil replied "I'm always here if you need me I know it'll be tough but...all people have to go at some point and you're no where near that..." Polly said.

Basil stood up his palms sweaty and his heart beating fast he knew he was about to cry. "I-im not hungry s-sorry..." Basil rushed off to his room forgetting to wash his plate. 'i messed up didn't i.' Polly asked herself cleaning up the table.

I think Polly found my diary I think she thinks I'm crazy I'm not crazy...maybe? I don't know I lost my appetite I feel like crying but then I'd most definitely throw up, maybe I'll just go to sleep... -Basil

Basil went to the bathroom to brush his teeth he liked minty toothpaste really minty it kind of burned put it didn't matter to him he finished up and went back to his room Polly was at the door.

"Basil I'm sorry I went through your stuff I didn't realize it was a diary and when I read the first page I just got so worried..." Polly said "it's fine..." Basil replied "No it's not Basil I know what I did wrong but I want to tell you don't kill yourself when your grandma passed..she is a very smart and strong woman she wouldn't want you to do that for her your only 15 Basil and your about to be 16 please make it to 18 for her and that boy you like I bet he would be heartbroken" Polly said hugging him.

"O-okay..." Basil replied "also I got something for you I'm proud of you Basil" Polly said taking out sunflower seeds "I remember you saying you needed some in the back pages" Polly handed him the seeds "you spent your money on me?" Basil looked up at her. "You're like my son Basil if I could I would adopt you I know your parents are terrible so I'll try to be the best step in I can" Polly replied "thank you..." Basil looked down at the container of seeds with a sunflower on the package then he goes back in his room.