TEENS : a Jahnnie fanfic

I can't do it.

Carringtons pov:

Tw:slight SA

"i think you..need to apologise to Chase." Those were the words i dreaded. The words i did NOT want to hear. The thing I was scared to do. "I-..I can't Johnnie." "Why not?" "I..uh..I just..cant." "come on Carrington..you need to.." "i don't have to. I don't want to. I'm not doing it." "Carrington. You need to." "no." "yes." "I'm not doing it!" "yes you are!" I felt the back of my throat hurt. A headache coming in. and teary eyes. i shake my head "well then where are you gonna sleep tonight? you're gonna have to see him anyways." "..I'll apologise tonight." "okay.." I stand up. "Carrington,where are you going?" "The store?" "for what?" "alcohol?" "no. you're not doing it." "..please?" "why?" "It might..help apologise to..Chase?..and..It's my coping method." "..okay then..if it..helps.." I go to the store,get a few bucks out of my pocket,grab some alcoholic drinks and buy them(they sold it underage),i bring it too Johnnie" "want some?" i gave it to Johnnie as he took it. I also took one and we drunk,and drunk,and drunk. Well,mostly me. Johnnie ended up going back,so it was just me. Some girl sat next to me,she was quite older then me. She started to be a bit touchy or..flirty? i don't really know. she just moved on my lap and put her hands on my chest. I felt uncomfortable. I didn't know what to do. after a few minutes i said "I've got to go,sorry" pushed her off me and walked back to the cabin. I went inside and saw all the others asleep,apart from chase. he was scrolling on his phone,turned on his side. I led down and put my arms around him as he sighed "what do you want?.." "I'm sorry chase.." i pulled him closer "..I'm sorry too.." "..you know Chase..your really pretty..and..i really like you..chase." "..i think your just drunk Carrington.." "maybee.." i laughed as Chase turned over and snuggled up into my chest as i played with his hair "where did you go last night..you never came back.." "i..drunk my problems away.." "sorry.." Its fineee.." i laughed a bit more "it wasn't fine when this girl got a bit touchy with me..and her age is quite older then us..hah.." "I'm sorry i wasn't there for you..are you okay?" "mhmmm.." I slowly started to drift off as Chase spoke,apologising a lot and telling me he will always be there for me.