Brave New Life

Day Thirty-Six

Today was terrible. I don't feel like it would be fair to rate it on the growth scale however, because I was physically ill all day and sort-of still am. I barely got any sleep last night and woke up strangely dizzy at 2 am, which has never happened before. When I got up for work I was both exhausted from lack of sleep and had a gnarly stomach ache from something I ate yesterday. I spent my entire morning at work barely functioning from how badly my stomach hurt. Just when my stomach ache seemed to be going away the worst thing happened. My vision started messing up. You see, I get vision migraines. About a half hour after the vision starts messing up the migraine hits. I've gotten these since I was fourteen and am all too familiar with the signs. My migraines are so severe that usually when I get that blank spot in my vision I immediately begin sobbing because I'm so terrified of my migraines. 

Luckily these migraines have gotten less severe since I went off of birth control, but they still put me out for most of a day. I recently had my migraine medication upped to 4x the dose I was on and I took it as soon as the vision thing started. I thought I'd try laying down in a quiet dark room at work and it might pass with the new high dose, but after an hour of that it only got worse. A co-worker had to drive me home and I spent the next couple of hours sipping Gatorade and taking multiple hot baths. I thought my urge to take hot baths during a migraine was odd too, but I looked it up once and apparently it's a thing. Something about increasing circulation or reducing inflammation or some such. Then I mercifully fell asleep for several hours and I woke up feeling a lot better. Honestly, this was a mild migraine. I managed to not even throw up (even though I certainly felt like I was going to several times). So, even though my meds didn't stop it in it's tracks, the fact that I was able to get up and eat a real meal today at all is a small miracle compared to how my migraines used to go. 

Now I'm going to lay my sensitive brain back down in my bed and watch tv because just writing this is taking a lot of strength right now. I'm just not going to count today as a bad day since the circumstances were out of my control. 

Til tomorrow my hopefully-non migraine-suffering comrades,

-C.