When It's Too Late

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What's the saddest part of love? Is it when you love someone but they can't reciprocate your feelings? Is it, when that person claims to loves you but can't take the risk of being with you? Or when the person you love, loves someone else?

As the time goes by love become so hard to have. People cheat, they got bored, fell out of love, and afraid to take the risk. But not me, I know I'm too hard to resist. He will definitely love me... soon. Or so I thought.

Alyssa Rae Dunn POV...

"We already did it, we did it! Why are you blaming me for what we both wanted to do Russell?!" we fucked and guess what? He didn't like what happened, he's saying that it was a mistake and he didn't mean it.
"Its a mistake Rae, we both know it shouldn't have happened." he sighed deeply
"We're engaged Russell, why is it a mistake?" I looked at him in disbelief, parang ilang kutsilyo ang tumusok ng paulit ulit sa puso ko.
"May iba akong mahal Rae, bakit hinayaan mong mangyari yon? Alam mong mahal na mahal ko si Chesca, at hindi niya pwedeng malaman na may nangyari sa'ting dalawa." nag pantig ang pandinig ko sa sinabi niya, agad na umangat ang kamay ko at dumapo sa pisngi niya.
"Pareho tayong lasing kagabi Russell, ginusto mo rin ang nangyari pero bakit ngayon kasalanan ko lang? Do you really despise me that much? Na pagkakamali na para sayo ang ginusto mo rin namang mangyari?" His phone rang he looked at the screen and immediately walked out of our house, yes our house. We're only engage because of our families. Our parents are best friends and business partners too.
"Go on, leave and be a d*ck! I swear Russell, one day you will not see me again and you'll come running.. trying to find me everywhere!" ofcourse he didn't hear it, because he drove off already. For the hundredth time I cried again because of him, because of Russell Wilson.

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After crying like an idiot, I drove to his parents house. I was welcomed by our parents who's having a little chats.

"I'm not going to sugarcoat my words for everyone.." I started and look at my mother's eyes.
"I'm already exhausted, I can't try again. Pagod na po ako." nag unahang tumulo ang mga luha ko
"I can't marry Russell, please. I'm already drained, I'm already tired. Ginawa ko na lahat, ayoko na." lumuhod ako habang umiiyak sa harapan nila, bakas ang gulat sa mga mukha nila pero wala akong pakialam. If this is the only way para makawala ako sa engagement na 'to gagawin ko.
"Please itigil niyo na ang pag papakasal sa aming dalawa. Hindi ko na kaya, pagod na pagod na akong intindihin ang lahat. Ayoko na siyang makita ulit, sobrang sakit na." patuloy ang pag agos ng luha ko habang nag mamaka-awa at hawak ang kamay nila.
"What happened Ija?" umiling ako sa tanong ni Auntie Raine
"Ayoko na siyang pakasalan please, luluhod ako hanggang kailan niyo gusto basta 'wag niyo na akong ipakasal sa kanya. Gagawin ko lahat, tatapusin ko ang pagtira sa bahay namin gaya ng usapan. Pero aalis ako pagkatapos, hindi ko siya kayang pakasalan."

"Ija, what did he do this time?" Tito asked
"No, no no. Please don't tell him this, don't tell him that I came here. You can tell him everything once I'm already away. Please, I'm begging." I don't know if its because of too much crying but my eyes blurry and I heard everyone screaming my name before everything went black.

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After 3 days...

"We called you over because we already made our minds, I'm sorry if we're not thinking of our actions and just made you two agree with the arrange marriage." Auntie Raine said, still I'm not looking at them.
"We decided to stop the engagement." I look at them, tears started forming in my eyes.
"As planned, you still need to live in your house for the last 3 weeks. Once you leave, that's the time that we're going to tell Russell everything."

This is it, I'm free.

"I'm not really supporting this, they can still try until the contract expires." Mom suggest.

No, this is bad. Mom is not accepting it, I have a bad feeling about this.

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