mlp:eqg 'aura' || poorple

chapter 9 - mean

My lack of sleep after I stayed up late with Twilight has got up to me earlier than I imagined. I luckily made it to lunchtime without other problems, and rushed to the library to gain some energy and sense of reality.

I sat down somewhere safe and kept looking at my phone. Sadly the only thing I could be entertained by wasn't online at the moment. I knew she was probably sleeping in. It was something I only dreamed about now. At some point, I was barely keeping awake. My head was trying to go down any moment where my brains wasn't occupied. I almost started to regret what brought me to this state. But the more I thought about it... It was worth it. I had a good time. She was nice.

I smiled.

Out of boredom I looked through our last texts. I put the last one right after going home, wishing her good night. She reacted with a heart emoji as a conversation closing. This made me feel like a little kid that got a lollipop for free. It made me feel weird, but still I took it.

Then suddenly, the notification caught me off guard. And Ironically it was not from her.

'Yo it's Trixie' - It said. - 'I wanted to talk about the project but youre not at lunch today ???' - I looked with a surprise. I totally forgot she got my number. By the way she placed the sentence I knew the oblivious. She didn't notice I haven't been going to the cafeteria since the Fall Formal. It got me wondering for a minute if everyone had missed it, when I purposely avoided the place. My emotions were mixed. I wanted people to be unbothered and simply peaceful about my absence there. I wished they didn't feel threatened by my presence. At the same time I immediately felt down that, although some people liked to pick on me, I was also forgotten. Exactly what I deserved.

'Hi' - I responded quickly. - 'Yeah, I'm not there today, sorry. What did you wanna talk about?' - I tried to get away from nervousness.

'Well we need to figure out how we do it lol' - She typed. - 'I can get my parents out of the house to get some space for it' - She seemed peaceful through the screen. It was surprising when she was someone well known to my past self. She did save me from those dudes the other day, though.

'That's fine by me, when?' - I collaborated for my safety. I didn't want her to know where I lived.

'Maybe today ??? I so wanna get this over with' - I held onto my shirt harshly. The plan to spend this afternoon has been changed within seconds. - 'When your last class ends?' - Her messeges didn't give me a lot of space to disagree. I was stuck to cooparate. This was supossed to be the first project with someone, and it was going downhill for me. I really didn't want to do it with her.

'Yeah, that's a good idea' - I lied, I lied, I lied. I already wondered how aweful will I be. - 'My last is at 6th'

'Oh mine too actually thats nice' - She responded quickly. - 'Let me meet u at the entrence k? We will walk cuz I live near the school so no bus needed'

'Sure' - I sighed. I hit my head on my knees, while my hands stayed loose. I groaned with my missery at this awful reality of a school life.

I was about to start complain more, I saw a screen light up again, and now with a messege I waited for in the first place. With that I had to spill.

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'you got this,  you drama queen haha' - She answered my another anxious rant. She caught me right after the situation, so she got all the heavy emotions between my written words. I haven't remembered last time I didn't want the school to end quickly. - 'just focus on the working part, you don't need to socialize with her through that'

'I don't wanna seem mean or whatever else' - My answears were nothing but my every thought. I couldn't stop myself. And it wasn't all about being mean or arrogant. I didn't know if I knew how to be nice. Like at all. It was surely easier to be just mean. Nice or normal... seemed too far for me to wintnessed.