US - Harry Styles

Chapter 5

Tilda.

"I wrote a song about you Till's" he whispered to me as we lay in bed on our sides facing each other. He put's a piece of hair behind my hair and then run's his thumb down the side of my check. i just stared at him in shock, in awe. i was feeling every possible feeling i could. we have only been together about 6 month's. "say something Till's" he whispered again. 

"I- I don't know what to say H" he looked at me worried, but that only caused me to slowly smirk. he was obviously thinking he had crossed some sort of line by writing a song about me. that though, was so far from the truth. I just loved teasing him, putting him on edge. 

"I'm s- sorry. I will take it off the track list" he removed his hand off my face and rolled on to his back looking up toward's the ceiling. I chuckled to myself. "Matilda, this actually isn't funny, i feel embarrassed" i bursted with laughter, i got up and jumped on-top of him so i was now sitting on top of his stomach with my legs either side of him. i then leant down and put both of my hand's on his face. 

"H, i'm only kidding" he was now able to look me in the eye's. "i can't believe you wrote a song about me, god i hope it isn't bad" i laughed which caused him to laugh i then leant down even further and smothered his face in kisses, he then grabbed my face and smothered my face with kisses which made us both start laughing. I pulled back from him and sat there staring at him. we hadn't even told each other we loved each other yet. and here he was, this amazing man, he wrote a song about me. I could quite possibly be the luckiest girl in the world. "when do i get to listen to it?" i whispered to him. 

He removed me off his waist and plopped me back on the bed and quickly kissed the top of my head, he then turned around and reached over to his side table and grabbed his phone then lied down and turned back to me. he opened his phone and opened voice note's and pressed play on the most recent voice note. 

"Sweet creature
Had another talk about where it's going wrong
But we're still young
We don't know where we're going but we know where we belong

And ohhhh, we started
Two hearts in one home
It's hard when we argue
We're both stubborn, I know

But oh
Sweet creature, sweet creature
Wherever I go, you bring me home
Sweet creature, sweet creature
When I run out of road, you bring me home"

"It isn't finished yet of course" he said while staring at me, desperately wanting my opinion but in all truth, i had no idea what to say, it was the most beautiful thing i had ever heard, more than beautiful even. and it was all mine, he wrote it about me, about us. harry saw a tear fall down my cheek and was quick to use his thumb to wipe it away. 

"Tilda.." he whispered with an upside down smile. "I guess that mean's you like it then?" he asked hopefully. 

"I love you" i blurted out, i feel like that was all i could say to truely show how much i loved the song and how much i was grateful for it. and i do love him, and this song helped me realise it. I didn't expect him to say it back, i didn't ever think he could love a girl who wasn't really apart of his world. but then a smile grew on his face and he engulfed me in a hug and kissed the top of my head multiple times.

"oh thank god, i love you too Till's" 

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I awoke suddenly. tear's running down my face. I must of been crying in my sleep. I thought dream's were supposed to be made up scenarios but ever since harry walked out my door again, all my dream's have been of real moment's that harry and i had together. When will this stop. Why can't i get away from it?

i sat up in my bed and thought about way's that could help me move on, because every bit of me did not want to move on. 

A knock at the door interrupted my thoughts. I quickly got up and grabbed my robe and slid it on then went to the door to open it up. 

No one was there. but then when i looked down it was a bunch of flowers. really beautiful one's. Of course my favourite, sunflower's. I didn't even need to look at the note to know who they were from. i picked them up and took them inside and placed them on the kitchen bench. 

"who are they from" Mila said walking into the kitchen from her room in the apartment. "god Mila you scared me i thought you were at work?" i said turning around to her trying to change the subject. Mila is an actor and is on multiple different TV show's the biggest being euphoria. She play's Lexi. 

"Nah, they are shooting other scenes today" she said suspiciously, i pursed my lips together and nodded. nobody said anything, we just stood in front of each other nodding for what felt like forever. "so.. the flowers" mila said. i shrugged my shoulder's as if to tell her i have no idea. I never told her Harry popped over while she was at work. I didn't want to explain the situation to her and didn't want her to get her hope's up. she always loved harry. "there's a note" she said as she reached her arm toward's the flower and grabbed it, i tried to take it off her but she ran into the living room laughing. this was clearly amusing to her. 

"now who is Tilda's secret admirer?" Mila teased as she waved the note in the air. she then flipped open the note. "Till's. I'm sorry, please forgive me, it's better for the both of us to keep thing's how they are right now." then she looked up at me with somewhat of a disappointed look written all over her face "H". i dropped my head down, for some reason his note didn't make me want to cry, i felt like i had no tear's left to give to the situation. 

"Tilda, why would he send this a year later?" she asked. then placed a hand on her hip. clearly annoyed that i havent filled her in on something. 

"I told Harry i listened to the album, then he told me he missed me, then he came over, then he told me he still loved me, then he ran out the door" i said quickly as i wanted to move on as fast as i could. All Mila did was walk over to hug me and then repeatedly apologised with me telling her it wasn't her fault. 

Mila and i were now sat on the couch talking about my feeling's and the whole situation. 

"so what is the plan? where do we go from here till's" mila asked. i looked to her and sighed. i didn't know what to tell her, because i didn't even know where to go from here. 

"well, i recall harry saying that the best way to move forward is to do something with the situation so you can use it then move on" then a smirk grew on her face.

"oh god what are you thinking Mi's" i groaned while swinging my head back and rolling my eye's with a slight smirk on my face. 

"maybe you should write a song?" she whispered.