US - Harry Styles

Chapter 7

Tilda. 

The past two month's have been crazy. I quit my job to focus on my music. "to focus on my music" oh god something i never thought i would say in a million year's. But even though this path i'm walking down wasn't a path i saw for myself, thing's seem to be going really well. I havent heard from Harry, well I didn't until i realised that you can see blocked message's on your laptop, and he had sent me maybe 50 text's over a 3 week period so i then had to delete him off my laptop too. It is sad, i never wanted to block him and be on bad term's but i had come to a realisation that it is better, for the both of us. I am currently in the process of writing an album and have been signed to a branch at Sony records. I also was just invited to the MET Gala, which in itself is just insane. 

"Alright so we have 5 song's so far" Adam, My Manager said. he then raised his hand up to his chin and started thinking. "so we need at least 4 more" he stated. I opened my eye's in shock. 

"god, okay" i said sort of just to myself but i know everybody else heard. writing my first song was easy, because there was no pressure to it and had no expectation's. However, writing these other song's have been really hard. Not only because people are expecting something better than what they have already heard, but also because there is a deadline and i'm not some sort of writing professional. I was also struggling with the idea that this was going to be a breakup album, I didn't want my whole entire album to be about harry but it seem's to be the only thing i can write about.  

"I have been working on a song at home, I'm not to sure about it but i can play it for you guy's anyway" I say looking around the room to Adam then Max, Jess and Sam, my band. 

"anything would be great right now Tilda. We just need more song's" Sam stated, which made us all chuckle. I pulled out my phone and went to voice memo's then pressed play on the most recent one. 

9:05 in the evening
I'm all up in my feelings
I'm calling your phone 'cause I can't get enough
And I got work in the morning
Early, early in the morning
But who needs sleep when we're loving it upOh, and why'd I gotta do this the hard way?
My body wants to be in your arms, babe, baby
Something I'll regret in the morning
But I just can't resist when you're callingI got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (yours, yours, yours)
That's what I say when I call you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

They all sat silently taking in the lyrics of the song i wrote. this song was different, it was faster and in my head would be a bit more upbeat. when the voice memo stopped everybody looked at each other, i took this as a bad thing. 

"I know it is different" i sighed then noticed everybody was looking at me "It is faster than the rest of the song's on the album but i was thinking maybe like an electronic vibe would be quite cool" 

"Tilda, this is exactly what the album need's" Max stated with a big grin on his face. "I agree" Jess said excitedly while clapping her hand's together. I cannot believe they like the song, this sends a rush of relief over my body. then we all looked to Adam, even though we can put whatever song's we want on the album without Adam's permission, as it wasn't really apart of his job description, we all really appreciated Adam's opinion and wouldn't do anything he wouldn't think was a good idea. 

"It's so good, it should be the second song released before the album drops" 

We all stood up and cheered, thanking the lord that now another song was done and we only had 3 more song's to go. All the boy's left the room to start producing some music for the lyric's. As i sat down on the couch jess came over and sat next to me. 

"So you gonna tell me who the song's about?" she whispered to me cheekily then gave me a smirk and a quick wink. I just laughed. 

"you know exactly who it is about" i sighed with a tight lip smile then looked over to her. She placed her hand on my shoulder. 

"so you still have feeling's for him?" she asked cautiously, not trying to over step. Although we were friend's we hadn't known each other for that long. 

"sometimes" i stated and shrugged my shoulders. 

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"alright, so Tilda, the MET" Adam stated while looking through his note's as we sat on a long glass table in his office with 5 other people from our team. We finished up at the studio about an hour ago, we smashed out the song and it was ready to be released, but now we are having our weekly meeting about all thing's coming up. "you will be wearing Gucci" I didn't really hear what he said after that, all i heard was i'll be wearing Gucci and that made my heart sink into be stomach. Gucci was alway's Harry's thing, and he is going to be there too. There is so many thing's he could be thinking when he realise's i am in Gucci, or maybe he wont even realise at all and i'm over thinking. Or maybe the fan's will notice and think we are secretly back together. "Tilda?" i hear Adam say. i must of zoned out. 

"sorry, i was thinking" i awkwardly said embarrassed. 

"As i was saying, we, your team, want you to bring a date" he stated, not even phased by what he has said. "you can bring a date yourself, or we have one set up for you" I don't have anybody i could bring as a date, the only person i know in LA is Mila, and i'm sure they are not wanting me to bring a girl. 

"Why do i need to bring a date?" i asked. This caused the group of people i was sitting with to giggle, my question clearly had an obvious awnser but because i'm all new to this how am i supposed to know. A young girl at the other end of the table spoke up. 

"It will be good for your image, as well as your date's." i nodded my head in agreement "It will get people talking, they will want to listen to your song's to try figure out if it is about your new date and all of that type of stuff" She finished. 

"Okay, so who do you have in mind" i questioned. Please don't say Harry. 

"Well, Austin Butler's team actually reached out and said he wanted to do this with you" Adam stated, clearly pleased that it was already all figured out and he didn't have to run around looking for someone. 

"he asked me for me?" i questioned, Adam nodded. Austin butler was so good looking, everybody want's to be with him and he personally asked for me. that is insane. It would be better to show up with a date then alone, especially with harry there. i can rub it in his face, and no one will know it is for PR. 

"Okay i'll do it" i smiled and they all looked chuffed as i was making their job nice and easy. 

"perfect, i'll send his team your private number to give to him, ya know Tilda, this is perfect for the song too" adam stated and then closed his book. I guess he was right, it would move some of the attention of my song's being just about harry and make people think they are about someone else. and secretly i really just wanted to make harry jealous. 

What is my life.