US - Harry Styles

chapter 14

Tilda.

Mila and I are staring at my phone waiting for it to ring. He always call's at 6pm.

"Are you nervous?" she whisper's to me as if there are other people in the room to hide our conversation from.

"Yes of course, i feel awful" i groan and put my hand's over my face.

"Are you gonna tell him?" she ask's carefully, as if a question like that would set me off. To be honest it probably would if it was anyone but Mila asking.

"no, not yet" i shrug. she let's out a slight giggle. I shot her a look of confusion.

"What?" she innocently asked "i know the situation is bad, but i cant help but be happy you are seeing harry again" she shrugged her shoulder's, clearly unashamed of what her best friend was currently doing.

"Mila, if anyone find's out about this.." i sigh "the press, the fan's, the papparazzi. My life, Austin's life and Harry's life would be ruined" i leant back on the chair in frustration. Obviously i feel bad, it is human nature to feel bad when you are hurting someone else. But for once in my life i deserve to be selfish, i hate that this is the situation but i deserve to be truely happy. And unfortunately i am only truly happy when i am with H. Mila grabbed my hand on the table and gave it a little squeeze.

"No one is going to find out" she said sincerely, then a huge smile crept on her face "Your secret is safe with me, you know that" i nodded in reply, of course i knew that. She wouldn't tell a soul even if someone was tourtering her to confess, Mila is so good with secret's. then the phone lit up ringing. Mila mouthed to turn it on speaker so i did, then placed the phone back on the table.

"hi baby" i whispered, calling him that seemed unfair, to Austin but also to harry who i knew hated that we called each other that.

"It is so good to hear from you Till's" Mila rolled her eye's at the use of my nickname. "what have you been up to?" he asked innocently, but for some reason it made my heart sink. I felt guilty, really guilty.

"Not to much, just writing new music" i said, then there was an awkward silence as i then realised i didn't ask him anything back.

"I miss you" he whispered on the other end of the phone. which broke my heart, he has no idea what i am doing behind his back.

"I miss you too obviously" i sputtered out. he then cleared his throat a little.

"I wanted to ask you something Tilda" He said. Oh god, it's over. I shoot my eye's up to Mila in a panic and she does the same. How does he know?

"yeah?" i whispered, which barley managed to come out because of how nervous i was, i feel like i am going to be sick.

"How come Harry followed you back on instagram? everyone is talking about it online" he paused for a bit and i didn't say anything, racking my brain for an awnser. Why did he do that, he shouldn't of followed me, i didn't even realise he had. "Am i missing something?" he added on with an awkward laugh.

"i didn't even realise" i choked out.. Austin didn't say anything so i knew he wanted me to say something else. "Maybe he just want's everyone to think there isn't any bad blood, he is being questioned about it a lot in interview's, i heard" i managed to say. I was happy with my awnser but with the long pause Austin was giving me i could tell he wasn't quite sure.

"So you havent seen him recently?" he further questioned. Does he know and he is just trying to see if i'll lie or come clean? we havent been caught anywhere together and we make sure to meet after it is dark so no one see's us. the only way to get this over with, is to go the hard route, something i didn't want to do to Austin ever.

"If you are insinuating that i have been seeing him behind your back then that is really upsetting" i say strongly as if i have been offended.

"Well Tilda, you guy's have a big history, i wouldn't be surprised" he spits back, clearly surprised by my reaction.

"I can't believe this, i thought we were in a good place" i scoff.

"You're right, I'm sorry-" he begin's to say. But i cut him off.

"No, Austin you have really upset me. I'll call you tomorrow but right now i just need some time" i spit out, then look to Mila who has her mouth covered from trying not to laugh. Are we both really bad people? yes.

"Okay, yeah. I love you" he say's then hangs up the phone.

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"so then he hung up the phone" I shrugged, while i played with the ring's on Harry's fingers as we lie in bed together.

"You called him baby?" Harry scoffed. i leaned back and looked up to him with a smirk on my face.

"is that seriously all you took away from that?" i giggled. Harry then rolled on top of me, propped up on his elbows the were either side of me. he looked down into my eye's and i looked back, those gorgeous green eye's i missed so much. I placed my hand on his cheek and ran my thumb over his cheek bone.

"I don't like that you call each other that, you know this" he stated. a slight growl in his voice. He was being possessive, which was alway's so hot when he was because he barley ever let's himself get like this.

"well he is my boyfriend harry" i stated. he rolled his eye's.

"rebound" he corrected strongly which only made me laugh. "do you love him?" harry whispered and then leant down and started kissing my neck underneath my ear. his tongue trailed down the side of my neck. my breathing started to get heavier. "awnser me" he said, then bit my ear lobe softly which made my stomach tighten.

"yes" i breathed. he then shot his head back up at me then rolled off. he got off the bed then started putting his clothe's back on.

"Then why are you here?" he asked, i could tell that he was 2 second's away from kicking me out. he pulled his shirt over his head then just stood there staring at me. waiting for my awnser. I got up out of the bed and walked toward's him. i then placed my hand's around his waist and leant back a bit so i could see his face.

"because i don't and could never, love him the way i love you" i whispered looking straight into his eye's. He then pulled me closer to him and placed his head into the crook of my neck.

"Oh god Till's" he moaned. then picked me up and threw me back on to the bed.