US - Harry Styles

chapter 12

Tilda.

As I focus on the handsome boy in front of me my mind can't stop thinking about someone else. Austin and I are currently at dinner, he is talking to me about his new movie coming up. Something about motorbike riders I'm not too sure as my brain keeps getting distracted. Austin and I make it a thing to go for dinner every Friday, our schedule's can get so busy at times so by doing this it makes sure we make time for each other. It was his idea, and honestly I think it is really sweet. Austin and I have been together for a little over a year now, we have even moved in together and everything was going perfectly fine. Great even.

I got over my feelings towards Harry a little after I heard Cherry on the radio. Austin makes it easy to forget. I hadn't thought about Harry until yesterday. When I saw on the daily mail that he and Olivia had split up. Now I can't stop thinking about it, I shouldn't be, I shouldn't care.

"Tilda" Austin interrupts my thoughts as he places his thumb on my knuckles, which causes me to blush as he is now realising I wasn't listening to anything. I quickly shake off my guilty look and awkwardly giggle.

'I am so sorry" I laughed a little again. "I'm just really busting for a wee" I awkwardly said. Austin's face relaxes and he laughs as well.

"Bathroom's are over there babe" he said as he pointed towards the restroom on the other side of the restaurant. I stood up and grabbed my purse and walked in the bathroom. I quickly walked into a stall and put the toilet seat down and sat on top of it. I don't need to pee, so I will just have to wait a bit.

I pull out my phone and subconsciously click on the contacts app and then on to Harry's name. I had unblocked him a few day's after hearing cherry, thinking he might try reach out to explain himself, but he never did. I shouldn't contact him, I have no reason to. But everything inside of me wants to, which only makes me feel guilty. I shouldn't want to talk to another man, let alone my ex. I huff in annoyance with myself. I am just going to do it, text him as a friend. I can still be his friend. Can't I?

T: I heard about the split. I'm sorry, here if you need.

I turned off my phone, expecting no response and stood up and flattened out my dress. Then my phone pinged.

H: I would love to see you. H x

Part of me is surprised by his response but the other half of me isn't at all. Mila has always said we are people who will always love each other. I don't know what to say, seeing him wouldn't be the right thing to do, but the worst thing is that all i want to do is to see him. I can't even think about replying right now so I turn off my phone and walk back out to Austin. Seeing his beautiful face only made me feel sick to my stomach about the thoughts going on in my head. Hopefully this is just a phase and it will pass. But there is a deep feeling in my stomach that I don't think it will this time.

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"You what?!" Mila screamed with excitement from the other side of the couch. Practically jumping up and down.

"Why do you look so happy? This is bad!" I sighed and brought my knees up to my chest and rested my chin on top of my knee.

"Why is this bad?" she innocently asked. I raised my eyebrows at her. "Oh Austin" the happiness washed right off her face.

"Yeah austin" I groaned "My sweet, loving, beautiful boyfriend Austin" i leaned back onto the arm rest of the couch. Mila scooted closer to me and grabbed my wrists to pull me back up so we were now facing each other.

"Trust me, i love Austin" she started and then placed her hand on my face "But this is Harry we are talking about. And if you can't be with him romantically, even though I want you to be, "I rolled my eyes at her. "You should still be friends because you two need to have each other" Her eyes started to water.

I knew what she meant, Harry know's things that nobody else knows and I know things about him as well. He knows how to comfort me with my anxiety but more importantly he knows about my family. Something I haven't talked to Austin about.

"I never responded to his text" I whisper to her, her eye's then glisten with hope and a cheeky smirk spreads across her face. I pull out my phone and pass it to her. "You do it for me then, I'm too scared". When in reality I am actually not that scared, it just makes it feel less like I'm cheating on Austin if she sends the text.

Mila unlocked my phone and typed away quickly and then closed it again. She places it back on the couch.

"What did you say?" I asked her. She picked up the phone again and showed it to me.

T: I'd love that too

I scoff at the text and giggle a bit. "Bit to much, no?" I asked my best friend. She laughs.

"Nothing is too much when it comes to you and Haz"

Then all of a sudden my phone, start's ringing. We both shoot up in anticipation. Why would he call? Not just text? I pick up my phone then sigh.

"Just my mum, hang on" I say. Then get up and walk out the room.

"Hey Mum" I sigh in defeat. I know exactly how this is going to go.

"Look, I'm not going to beat around the bush. I know you have money now. You need to send your family some" she's high. I can tell.

"And why should I do that?" I slid my back down the door and am now sitting on the bathroom floor. I am so completely over this. And her shit.

"Because I deserve it for raising you. If it wasn't for me you wouldn't be some rich and famous bitch" She has called me a bitch before, nothing new so it doesn't upset me as much as it used to.

"I'm not sending you anything, i can tell you aren't sober right now anyway" i rub my temple in annoyance.

"Fuck you Matilda. Hope you fucking die" then the phone cut off. Okay that is a new one. She has never told me to die before. I stand up and push the tear's back. I am not going to let her do this to me, not again.

I walk out of the bathroom and back to the couch. Where Mila is still laying.

"Did you send any?" she asked and she sits up next to me and puts her arm around me. I shook my head no. She kept her arm around me and was rubbing her hand up and down my arm in comfort. I leant my head down so it was now resting on top of her as her head is on my shoulder.

My phone pinged. Both of us shot up and looked at each other. I flipped my phone around and there it was.

H: Didn't think you would ever reply..

H: My place tomorrow, 12. H x

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sorry for the lack of update's. i am on a roll again now, expect more!! xx