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𝓵𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓸'𝓼 𝓳𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓪𝓵

-2022-

lando's third season in formula 1, his first without carlos as teammate and daniel riccardo

~ lando's audio journal ~

bahrain

ah fuck well, it's march 19 i don't even know what time this is but umm- "what're you doing?"  shh, go back to sleep, *kiss* i'll just go to the bathroom and do this.

*deep breath* so , maeve's here like you heard. quali was shit. daniel's been here a day and already it's down to 1-0. me being zero and it's, honestly i've had the car and the team for two years now and i need to make sure he knows i'm gonna kick his ass.

we're teammates, but no less than competitors. i....i'm sorry charlotte. i shouldn't have acted like a total dick earlier but it's how i felt about quali. umm...it's so difficult to concentrate when maeve's here oh my god. she's so-so fucking beautiful. i'm a little disappointed she's not here with niamh. 

i don't know how or why she's in bahrain but, i'm thankful she's here. she knows me and, if i get a better result tomorrow, i owe it to her. daniel has been in the sport longer, much more experienced but i wasn't going to let that get to me. i can do better. we have the same car, which means i just have to beat him to know i can do it. it's the wrong way to look at it but that's going to be my charm.

practice and quali weree bad, but the car isn't all that bad. there's potential. atleast top five behind the bulls and mercedes. easy.

maeve talked to me and heard me out. she told me what i wanted to hear first and then whar i needed to know. she's fucking amazing and get's me like nobody else. i swear to god if i don't marry her, i'd rather be single for the rest of my life. i know we're stubborn and i can't deny that moving away has helped my focus but that's just rhe racing part of my life. i'm still lonely as fuck especially with carlos gone.

something ironic to note is that maeve loves daniel ricciardo. getting her into motorsports, he was one of the first names she'd recognised and i was surprised. "oh ofcourse i know danny ric. i love him" were her words yeaes ago. the universe was playing a joke on me by teaming me up with him soon as maeve and i broke off. a constant reminder of her. if anything, whether its jealously or thrill, if i outperform myself tomorrow, it's because of maeve.

march 20 :

update- i finished fourth, in my first race of the season and it's lovely. i finished way ahead of daniel and the race was, god formula 1 made me feel alive. i wanted to run upto maeve but, coming back to the hotel i realised she'd left. she wasn't here ro stay anyway. the fact that she slept over last night was, she did more than i could ever ask for. thank you maeve for knocking my head into the right place.

-2024-

his first season with oscar as his teammate
 ~landos audio journal~
miami

oh my fucking god
it's monday morning, afternoon - u don't know the time but my head hurts and *yawns* i don't see anything around me, there's nobody in bed with me but i can't stop smiling.

*giggles*
i did it.
i won.
i won on a freaking ass of a circuit.

honestly, after the sprint, all that good feeling from quali really pissed me off.

i'd had a great start to the season but threw it all away. i think they fined me for it, i'm not too sure yet.

i wish i wasn't alone right now. i mean, my friends are here. ria and aarava are here, all of mclaren crew stayed back, max oscar, carlos. everyone's there but, i really wish i got to see niamh's reaction first hand.