Twisted Secret || Jeon Jungkook ✔

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The following morning, Jungkook woke up reaching out for Y/N, only to come up with empty space. Lifting his head from the pillow, he glanced around to see that she wasn't anywhere. He climbed out of bed, grabbed a robe, and moved from room to room. There was no sign of her. The sweatpants and shirt he had removed from her body last night were gone. There was no sign that she'd even been in his apartment. Moving to the sitting room, he found the picture frame with a Post-it note covering her face.

"Last night was a mistake. Y/N."

The words filled him with dread. Last night had been the best night of his entire life. Y/N was with him all the way. What had changed between last night and this morning? He ran fingers through his hair as he started to get agitated. This shouldn't be happening.

He grabbed his cell phone from the kitchen counter and dialed Taehyung's number.

"This is too early for me to be dealing with whatever you've got going on."

"Is Y/N in today?" Jungkook asked.

"Well, she was, but she called in sick this morning."

Jungkook cursed.

"What's going on?" Taehyung asked.

"Y/N was with me last night. She sneaked out of my place, leaving me a note to say it was a mistake."

"Maybe you should let her be. She clearly knows what she's talking about," Taehyung suggested.

"I can't leave her alone." He'd tasted her, been inside her, and knew what heaven was all about. No, he wasn't letting her get away from him. He'd fight her and do whatever it took to prove to Y/N that he was serious about what he wanted.

Within half an hour, he was dressed and in his car. He started by going to her apartment, but no one answered. Next, he went to Taehyung's place, only to be told she wasn't there. The only place he hadn't checked was Anaya's graveside.

Crap. What was he going to do if she was crying next to her friend?

Bracing himself, he drove to the grave and climbed out. In front of Anaya's stone marking her resting place, there was a bench. Y/N sat on it, wrapped in a jacket.

His heart pounded as he entered the gate, then took a seat beside her. Y/N tensed but made no move to leave.

This was the last place he wanted to be. When it came to Anaya, he possessed a secret of his own that he never wanted Y/N to find out.

"You left without waking me up," he said.

"I've never been good at the morning-after routine." She kept her hands locked together in her lap.

"Why did you leave this?" He showed her the note she'd left.

"I thought you'd take the hint and not try to follow me today. I'm not in the mood to do this with you."

"You're going to try to ignore me?" He turned to look at her.

He saw the tearstains on her cheeks, and he hated them.

"I was going to try and put some distance between us, Jungkook. Last night, it shouldn't have happened. Whatever is going on shouldn't have happened." She licked her lips, and he wanted to reach out and touch her. But he couldn't do anything as she kept to herself. Y/N didn't turn to look at him.

His heart broke a little at the pain clearly in her eyes.

"Why?"

"Don't pretend you don't understand," she said.

"I don't. You're not making any sense to me."

"Please, shut up." She glanced at him.

"No, I'm not going to shut up. Last night was fucking amazing, like I always knew it would be." She shook her head and got to her feet. He refused to let her leave. "You can't cut me out. I didn't use a condom, and I bet you're not on the contraceptive pill."

"My God, how low will you fucking go?" She tugged out of his hold. "I don't care what you think. I am on the pill, but I didn't give it a thought last night."

"We were both in the moment."

"It was a mistake. A big, gigantic mistake." She went to turn away.

"Why? Is it because I belonged to Anaya, is that it?"

"You were Anaya's boyfriend. I betrayed a friendship."

"I was never Anaya's to belong to, and she knew it." He took a step closer to her. "That picture says it all, but you're too afraid to admit the fucking truth."

"You hated me!" she yelled.

"Hate is the furthest thing between us, and I never hated you." He gripped her arm and pulled her close. Jungkook stared into her eyes, soaking her in like he always did. Why did she have to have so much power over him? "Anaya saw it, and she was fucking jealous of you."

She shook her head. "I've no idea what you're talking about."

He fought with himself, but the truth he wanted to keep from her had to be told. It was either telling her or losing her. "Anaya knew how I felt about you. From the first moment I saw you, I wanted you. When I started to get to know you, I knew I wanted more. I fought it because I couldn't do that to Anaya, and I knew if I hurt her, I'd lose you. I'd rather get the short bursts of time with you than nothing at all." He cupped her cheek, tilting her head back. "Then she saw the picture I kept of you that day." His hands shook a bit as he recalled their argument.

"What?" she asked.

"I left my wallet on the dressing table. She found the picture I kept of you for my own pleasure. It's one of you smiling with the sun shining down on you. Anaya started screaming at me for cheating." He didn't want to say more, but he started it. "I told her I never touched you and that you didn't have a clue how I felt. You two were going out shopping, and there wasn't any time to mend fences. She left with you, and it was only later that I felt real pain."

"The day of the accident, she found out you cared about me?" Tears were falling down her cheeks.

"I got a text ten minutes before your call. She asked me a simple question."

She opened her mouth and then closed it.

"Anaya asked me if I'd be able to love her if you were dead."

Y/N gasped. "No, Anaya wouldn't do that."

"Ten minutes later you called, Y/N. She was trying to kill you but killed herself in the process."

"No, you don't know that. Anaya wouldn't do that."

He held her tightly as her tears fell harder than ever before.