In Another Life || Levi x Reader/OC

Hate

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Content Warning (18+, mdni): rough sex with choking, face fucking, hair pulling, overstimulation, and orgasm denial

Song recommendations (because why not?):

Dissolve - Joji

Like You Do - Joji

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The next few weeks flew by. It had now been nearly a month since Levi took you and Zeke into the forest to shelter you from the outside world. The hours were repetitive and boring; Levi having to spend most of the day sitting outside with Zeke was the most excruciating part.

He'd much rather experience your snarky sarcasm than listen to Zeke's attempts at provoking him. There were days where Zeke would raise Levi's temper so much that he would have to go to the one place that he knew would ease his discomfort, even for just a little bit - your tent.

There were a few days where you were nearly completely silent with him, only replying with one or two word answers. He assumed it in part had to do with the hurtful words he said to you by the trees.

"Sometimes I wonder if it would have been better if you stayed dead."

He knew that comment must have shattered something inside you. Your eyes went dim, and your hands began to tremble. You weren't prepared to hear those words from him after making such a vulnerable confession.

"Loving you made me feel free."

There wasn't a single day that Levi didn't replay that conversation he had with you. Your words fulfilled something inside him. Listening to you profess your love for him made the lonely pit in his heart fill once more. No one had ever described loving him the way you did. It made him feel special and important.

But the thought of it also made him angry. It angered him to know that your words were enough to still sway him, and it angered him that he sympathized with your selfishness. By giving in to your selfish desires, you hurt him terribly. Just because you apologized and offered him an explanation didn't mean he had to forgive you.

Despite that, he still wondered if he meant the spiteful words he had said. Did he truly mean what he said, or was trying to convince himself that he meant it in order to protect his heart?

You started speaking to him again three days after that dispute. Your responses were still short and straight to the point, but what you said at the end of that particular day almost left him speechless.

"I'm sorry about what happened to Erwin," you had said. Levi had stiffened, his back facing you. "I know he was important to you. I just wanted to tell you that."

Levi immediately felt agitated again upon listening to your words. The memory of Erwin's death emerged in his mind again, and it was something he didn't want to be reminded of.

This was a man that was willing to give you a second chance, only to die by the hands of the shitty blonde you were secretly working with - the one Levi was unable to kill.

If you had just said something sooner... just confessed the truth months before...

She had to think of her sister.

Levi wanted to hate you because hating you was easier. Despite your valid reasons for what you did, he still found it difficult to completely allow himself to pardon you for your mistakes. Forgiving you and treating you the way he once had just didn't feel fair to him, and for that reason, Levi had responded with, "Never fucking mention him again."

You were silent for a few more days after that, unwilling to make an attempt to crack his facade.

It wasn't until last week that you started speaking up again, but instead of being polite and keeping yourself relatively quiet, you returned to behaving like the same person he remembered meeting the first day he encountered you in Trost District. Levi always knew you were never the type to just allow yourself to be treated poorly, so he wasn't surprised to see your anger gradually rise the longer he continued speaking spitefully towards you. In fact, he was surprised you put up with his attitude for as long as you did.