In Another Life || Levi x Reader/OC

Savior

Light forced its way through the small, open gap of the entryway of the tent, striking you in the face. You squinted your eyes at the blinding sunlight, rolling your body over to face the other direction. The entire tent was glowing yellow due to the intense sunlight bleeding through the thin material.

You felt incredibly groggy - your head was throbbing against your skull. It was surprising that you managed to get yourself some sleep after what happened last night. Levi's words still continued to linger in your mind.

"This doesn't change anything."

You huffed at the memory.

How could he say that? How could he kiss you, touch you, and make love to you the way he did only to take all of it back with that one comment?

He still loves me... I know he does...

You hadn't felt tenderness like that in so long. There was no way he could have just acted the way he did without feeling some sort of fondness towards you.

Had he left after the first time, you wouldn't have felt as heartbroken as you did currently... but the second time? That second time wasn't just sex. You were completely caught up in his sweet affections the second time - ensnared in a trance.

God, he was so perfect... until he ruined it at the very last second.

You decided right then and there that you were no longer going to keep trying to pry him open anymore. If he believed that someone else taking your power was the right decision, then so be it. You had called him out on his behavior consistently for the past month, only to see little improvement. With the way he had carried himself last night, you would have thought that he would slowly begin to trust you again, but you were so unbelievably wrong.

If he truly hated you like he said he did, you wished he would have committed to that thought instead of playing with your heart. His actions weren't fair to you at all, but then again, maybe that was his goal - to hurt you. After all, you had caused him pain that you could never make up for. Maybe he did this as some sort of revenge.

Well, if that was his goal, then he succeeded.

Some motion was heard by the entryway. You glanced over your shoulder to see what was causing it - Levi's head peaked through.

"Good morning," he said, his voice monotone.

Fuck you and your good morning, you wanted to say. Instead, you ignored him by turning your head around to face the other direction again. The soft padding of his boots on the ground grew closer to you.

"I brought you fruit," he said casually, placing a tray down on the floor like he always did every morning when he brought you breakfast.

"Take it back," you said. "I'm not hungry."

"I can't let you starve."

"You might as well. You're gonna feed me to someone anyway, aren't you?"

"I need to keep you alive for now," he responded. Silence surrounded the two of you for a moment while he stared down at you. You refused to meet his glare.

"Can you look at me when I'm speaking to you?" he grumbled.

Anger rose in your chest. He really had the audacity to ask you that?

"No," you said bluntly. You had been putting up with his shitty behavior for the past month because you had accepted that your actions may not be forgiven by him, but for him to toy with your feelings the way he did last night was just too far.

You told him how remorseful you felt, and you tried to show how you changed. There was only so much you could do now, and if he wasn't willing to look past that, you respected that. What you couldn't tolerate was the inconsistency behind his words compared to his actions. If he said he hated you, his actions hadn't fully shown that. He kept making all these excuses for his behavior, but you were able to look right past them. He hated you for what you did, but deep down, he still loved you. You wouldn't be alive right now if he didn't, and he certainly wouldn't have made love to you last night either.