falling into you || woosan

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WOOYOUNG'S POV

As I stepped into the room, the air felt thick with the weight of everything that had happened. The door clicked softly behind me, sealing us off from the rest of the world. My eyes immediately found San, sitting on the edge of the bed, his shoulders slumped, his gaze fixed on the floor. He looked so small, so lost, and my heart shattered all over again.

"San," I called out softly, my voice trembling with the fear and guilt that had been gnawing at me since Seonghwa told me what happened. But he didn't respond. He didn't even look up.

I hesitated, feeling the crushing weight of the silence between us, then slowly approached him, each step measured and careful. When I reached the bed, I sat down beside him, leaving a small space between us, not wanting to overwhelm him. The silence hung heavy in the air, but I didn't know what to say—how to begin to make this right.

The minutes ticked by in unbearable quiet until finally, San moved. He leaned over, resting his head on my shoulder, and I felt a wave of relief wash over me, mixed with a deep, aching sadness. His touch was familiar, comforting, but the vulnerability in it nearly broke me.

"I love you," San whispered, his voice hoarse, raw from crying. The words were so soft, yet they cut through the silence like a knife, hitting me square in the chest. Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision. How could he still say that, after everything I had done? After the pain I had caused him? I blinked, letting the tears spill over as I turned slightly to press my cheek against the top of his head.

As San rested his head on my shoulder, I could feel the shudder of his breaths, each one more ragged than the last. "I'm so sorry, San," I choked out, my voice barely above a whisper, trembling with the weight of everything I was trying to say. "I love you so much, and I never wanted to hurt you. I was just so... so hurt, and I acted out of my own pain, and I... I'd give anything to take it all back. To take away the pain I caused you."

My words came out in a rush, tumbling over each other in their desperation. I could feel the sobs building in my chest, threatening to spill over, but I held them back, trying to keep it together. But then San lifted his head from my shoulder, and I saw the tears streaming down his face, his eyes red and swollen from crying. It was too much.

Before I could say anything more, San reached up, his hand trembling as he wiped away my tears with his thumb. But the act, meant to comfort, only made his own emotions spill over. His body shook as he tried to speak, his voice breaking with every word.

"I forgive you," he sobbed, the words coming out broken and raw. "I forgive you, not because I'm not hurt, but because... because I love you, Wooyoung. I love you so much, and I can't... I can't hold onto this anger. I can't lose you again."

His words were like a knife twisting in my heart. I could see how much he was hurting, and it killed me to know I was the one who had caused it. Tears streamed down my face, falling faster than I could wipe them away. San tried to catch them, his hands shaking as he brushed his fingers against my cheeks, but it was no use. We were both crying messes, both so overwhelmed by everything that had happened, but still trying to find some way to comfort each other.

"I don't deserve your forgiveness," I managed to say, my voice breaking as I reached up to cup his face in my hands. "You're the one who deserves so much better than what I gave you. I hurt you, San, and I'll never forgive myself for that. But I swear to you, I'll never hurt you like this again. I'll spend the rest of my life making sure of that."

San shook his head, tears still streaming down his face as he leaned into my touch. "You do deserve it," he insisted, his voice barely above a whisper, thick with emotion. "You deserve it because I know you didn't mean it. You were hurting too, and... and I should have seen that. But, please, Wooyoung... let's not hurt each other anymore. I don't want to keep feeling this way."