Silent Repost

Everything turned out different

I finally had a new seat and it was in the last row. I was still sitting next to the girls, but the boys moved the table all the way to mine so that I finally had someone again. At the moment I was finally happy again, but every new week that came the distance between the two tables always changed due to testing.

Every now and then they would also start to just beat me up or insult me for no reason. These words hurt a lot as I already had a hard enough time. But I just tried to stay positive and stop letting them put me down.

When I didn't know what to do, I remembered Mr. Hunter's words that I could always come to him, so I asked him for advice on what to do about it. We talked for a while and tried to find a solution. Then I wanted to make my way back to the next lesson when he asked me how I was doing. 

This question became too much for me and I just said that I couldn't do any more. I just do more sport, school and studying is too much for me because I can't manage to take a break because I always have to go full throttle and don't realize that it's not good for me. I'm the kind of person who needs good grades to be happy with myself and to get confirmation that I'm enough. On top of that, I don't want to disappoint Mr. Hunter because he told my mom that he admires me for having such good grades despite so many gym classes. So I tried to study a lot, especially geography with Mr. Hunter, even though I didn't have much time for it. I also had to sacrifice my sleep from time to time.

But back to the interview. Mr. Hunter tried to give me a good talking to and told me to simply shift down a gear and do nothing for a few days during the autumn vacations. I did that and it was really good.

Then Mr. Hunter told me once again to take care of myself and we said goodbye.