Silent Repost

A big twist in the second year

The vacations came to an end and my second year at the school began. When I found out which teachers I would have, I was relieved, but also frustrated to no longer have some of them.

The most important thing for me, however, was the fact that I only had Mr. Hunter for two lessons in geography and no longer in PE, as he was now coaching the soccer team. We got new coaches and when I found out who they were, it was all over for me. We had our first training sessions with them and I knew straight away that this school year was going to be just awful.

Besides the fact that Mr. Hunter was no longer coaching us, it was also the first year without my volleyball coach. But when I found out who our new coach was going to be, I had some hope for this season. He was a former national team and Bundesliga player. What I didn't know at the time was that the team would be half disbanded and no one would have the motivation and ambition that I had. I was doing everything I could to be able to go to the national indoor championships to be selected for the national team. However, our team cohesion simply wasn't there this year. We lost games that we normally shouldn't lose, but whatever. Back to school.

The school year started terribly again. I came to class feeling positive, knowing that this year I would finally have someone to sit next to because my boyfriend said he would save me a seat next to him.

But this turned out quite differently, someone else sat next to him and when I asked what that was about, he didn't care and told me it was my own fault for being so late. So the first problem was just around the corner, I was sitting with some girls and just felt uncomfortable. I also sat right in the middle of the class, which didn't do me any good with anxiety. A few weeks passed before an incident occurred.