Decisions

Apologies - Lyra's P.O.V

When I wake up I'm in the Medi bay again but I'm not alone. I hear someone breathing across the room from me. I sit up and see Kanan across from me. He just sits there starring at his legs. For a second I'm afraid he will attack me. He notices that I'm wake and looks at me. He doesn't move he just sits there and looks at me. I do the same. His eyes are green but that doesn't mean anything.

"Kanan?" I ask softly hoping he's himself. He gets up and walks over to me. My breath catches in my throat and he puts a hand on my shoulder. I flinch when he touches me. I squeeze my eyes shut and turn away from him one arm around my stomach.

"Lyra it's okay I'm back to normal. Ahsoka helped me. Vader got in my head and took over. I'm so sorry for what I did to you. I swear to god I will never do that to you." He says. I turn and look at him tears in my eyes. I throw my arms around Kanan's neck and start to cry. We sit like this for some time. My arms around his neck my head buried in his shoulder.

When I calm down I speak up. "Dad I need to put something on can you umm...." I say and he smiles at me.

"Yeah sorry." He says getting up and leaving. I get up and walk over to the mirror in the Medi bay. I see all I wear is a white shirt and red leggings. I grab my green dress off of the counter next to the sink and slip it on over the shirt. I slowly walk up to the Medi bay door and wait for it to open. When it does I head to the kitchen and see Kanan cooking. I sit down at the table and stare at my hands. I feel Kanan's worry and pain as he watches me. He finishes cooking and comes to sit in front of me.

After a few minutes he speaks up. "Lyra I'm so sorry I hurt you like that Vader took advantage of my shock that you were... You ARE pregnant." He says correcting himself shaking his head. I look down at my stomach and when I look up again my father watches me closely.

I look him in the eyes and break down. "I'm so sorry I didn't tell you before I just didn't think you were ready and I didn't want you to have more to worry about and... And... And." I try to finish but start to sob. I can't stop all I can do is cry.

Kanan gets up and slides in next to me. I feel him rap his arms around me. "No no no. Lyra it's okay it's not your fault sweetie. It's okay. You fine. I won't hurt you again." I hear him say over my sobs. I'm crying so much my stomach is starting to hurt. Kanan can tell I'm in pain. "Lyra calm down you need to breath." He whispers softly in my ear. I nod my head and breath in deeply between sobs. After about five minutes I've calmed down but Kanan doesn't let go.

I look up at Kanan and he looks at me. Sabine and the others rush in and when they see us they look taken aback. Ahsoka walks in and looks at us. Ezra and Steel don't look at all shocked that I'm with Kanan. Zeb and Ahsoka act like at any minute they will jump. Sabine and Hera stand there only for a second before they slide into the seat in front of us. The others calm down and go back to what they were doing. Hera smiles at me.

"What happened to you?" I ask Hera. She looks down and I feel Kanan shift in his seat. I feel his pain, worry, frustration, and sorrow. I look at him and it floods back to me. "When he threw you out of the way to get to me." I whisper softly. I bring my knees to my chest and lock my head in between them. "It's all my fault your hurt." I say and I feel there confusion, worry, and other mixed emotions.

"How is this your fault Lyra I'm the one who threw Hera and hurt you and the others. It was never your fault Lyra." Kanan says and I shake my head. I look up at them.

"It's my fault because I asked Hera and Sabine to keep me and my child safe." I whisper and they look at each other. "If I hadn't asked you to protect me you wouldn't have gotten I front of Kanan when he was yelling." I say and Hera shakes her head.

"Lyra no even if you didn't ask me and Sabine to protect you I would have stepped in front of him to protect you. Of course I would have done everything I did before again if we went back." Hera says and I nod my head.