Wholly Apart

Chapter 23

LOREN KENSINGTON

I knew Madelyn was embarrassed about what had happened. But I'd tried to convince her for hours that I honestly didn't care. I didn't, because I obviously wouldn't have continued if I had minded.

But she was in her head too much and it was stressing her out. So much so that she didn't even look me in the eyes for the next three days. She refused to sleep in my bed, didn't let me sleep in her bed.

And I knew she was sleeping like shit. I knew I was because I was always awake half the night and I could tell from how exhausted she always was that she was awake a lot too.

She was sitting at the kitchen island, not looking at me once again and it was too much. It felt like such a ridiculous thing to be getting between us after all the shit we'd experienced lately.

But then again I could imagine this not only being about her period but also about her worrying about us together. Maybe she thought it was bad luck and that it wasn't going to go well between us because of this.

"Maddy," I said, stepping beside her, "We need to talk about this. And get over it, sweetheart"

She didn't look up at me, "I don't wanna talk about it"

"It's a period," I told her, brushing my fingers over her jaw, "It's normal, Mads. It doesn't bother me at all and you don't have to be embarrassed because of it"

She didn't answer and I knew that she was. She was very embarrassed and I hated it. Because there was no need for it.

"What do you want us to do for it to get better?" I wondered.

"It's not gonna get better," she mumbled, staring down into her cup of coffee.

I let out a small laugh, because even though I was worried that she was serious, I also thought that maybe she was making this a bigger deal than it was.

"You're aware that I'm gonna marry you one day, right?" I asked, turning her jaw softly so she had to look at me, "I'd help you put a tampon in if you needed me to. I don't care about it at all and I know you're embarrassed but I can assure you that it doesn't gross me out at all. If I cared about a bit of blood, I'd be fucking ridiculous"

She blinked a few times, taking in my words slowly and then bit down on her bottom lip, "But you... you had your mouth there"

I couldn't help the smile that cracked on my lips. At how adorable she was.

"Do you want me to do it again?"

Her eyes went wide, "No. I'm still on my period"

"And I still don't care," I told her and just to make it fully clear I gripped her hips and lifted her onto the counter.

Madelyn was staring at me like I was mad and I just gripped her thighs and brought them around my waist.

"I'd fuck you too while you're on your period," I said, bringing my mouth to her jaw and kissing softly just to feel her go weak against me, "It's supposed to help for the pain, you know?"

Madelyn was in pain when she was on her period. She sometimes curled up and didn't move all day because of it and I always used to cuddle her to make it feel better. But if we had sex and found out that it helped and didn't make it worse, I would without a doubt not give a fuck about a little blood.

"You really don't care?" She whispered against me and I shook my head, kissing up her jaw, "I really don't care"

I pulled away to look at her beautiful mouth and she leaned into me and pressed a peck to my mouth. I cupped her jaw and brought her mouth back to mine, kissing her longer and harder.