Deeper Connection..

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LIVING LEGEND!!💜😫✨

2 days later....

Janet~
Well I'm hiding from my fiancée and baby right now because I need a minute to breathe. I've been doing a lot for the baby because I want Toni to relax and all she wants right now is sex. I can't give her that since she's not healed and I feel so bad.

Thank god for baby Michele, but damn she's a handful. I love her to death and hopefully she doesn't wake up until the next few hours.

"Babe..." Toni called softly through the house. I head a crying baby in the back ground so something must be wrong.

"Yeah.." I said back. She knocked on the door and I told her to come in but she didn't.

"I can't get in the door is locked." she said. I forgot that that I locked the door when I came in my study.

"Sorry baby..." I said as I got up and unlocked the door.

"It's okay..what are you doing in here?"she asked.

"Working as always, you know how I am.." I said and she just nodded her head.

"The baby woke up and she won't stop crying, I'm about to lose my mind." she said handing me the baby and she almost instantly stopped crying.

"You just wanted your Mama that's all." I said rocking her back to sleep.

"I don't know why but I feel like a bad mother. You've been doing everything and I'm just here trying to heal, but I feel like such a burden.." she said as tears poured down her face.

"Come on baby so I can go lay her down and then we can talk because you shouldn't feel like that." I said getting up and walking to our room to lay baby Michele down.

After I laid her down me and Toni went to our upstairs bedroom and sat on the balcony. There's nothing more soothing than that. She sat in my lap while we talked.

"Talk to me baby what's going on?" I asked.

"I feel like an unfit parent because I couldn't figure out why Michele was crying. I didn't know what to do.." she said as tears filled her eyes.

"You're an amazing mother, you're better than I'll ever be. The fact that you're trying to do things, I'm not letting you, but the point is you want to do it. You're not pawning the baby off on me because you want to do it yourself. You know that you're a phenomenal mother and nothing can stop your greatness. You just had a baby Toni, be easy on yourself." I said holding her waist as she hugged me tightly and sobbed on my shoulder.

"This is just so hard for me sometimes, I get overwhelmed and it's too much. I still have yet to finish the album the fans have been wanting. So I kind of feel like my career is coming to an end or something." she said as the tears just flowed. I'm
happy she's letting it out rather than holding it in for a long ass time and not speaking up.

"To an end? girl it's just beginning. When that album drops you're gonna be so happy and I'm going to be right beside you cheering you on. Just because you're trying to recuperate doesn't mean give up on your hopes and dreams baby." I told her and she just nodded in agreement.

"I love you so much.." she said pecking my lips.

"I love you too and I always will." I said patting her butt so we could get up. The boys are never home, so if you wondering why we don't talk about them it's because 9 times out of 10 they're not here. Eissa never wants to hang out with Toni and me anymore it's crazy. He used to be clung to Toni like a magnet.

Ever since Toni had the baby they act like she's the only person they want to see. After all she wouldn't be here if we weren't, they need to acknowledge that.