Hold On I Still Need You

-Temporary Relief-

Sophie's POV: 

My health has been a major trial in my life, a difficult challenge. When I was told I had only six months left to live, I thought any chance of receiving good in this world was over. My hope was diminished, hanging by a thread. I felt lost, believing hope was gone forever, and that I would be stuck in dark despair, struggling through the last six months of my life in darkness.

Now, I have a reason to look for hope again.

About a week ago, Elwin gave me a treatment option that could improve my condition and maybe give me a better chance of getting a cure. The beginning was very emotional and rough, but I can't thank Keefe enough for the many times he has held me in his arms or the small, sweet gestures. Leaving sweet notes in my locker, showing up after school to study—well, kind of study. We spent most of the time laughing and having a good time together rather than doing homework.

It's been about a week since I started the new treatment, and things have been going very well. My condition has improved, giving us more time for the cure to arrive. Elwin said if it continues this way, it's possible I could be given much more time than originally expected.

I've felt better about myself. The days I would usually be dreadfully sick have been a thousand times better. I've still felt a little under the weather, but for the most part, it's better than it was before.

I just hope this continues. With the unknown lurking around the corner, we have no idea what could happen. But I'm not worrying about that right now; I want to focus on the positivity I have going. This hasn't happened in a long time, and I want to cherish it with all my heart.

Happiness is something you should hold onto. When Edaline and Grady received the news that I was improving, my heart swelled with joy at their reactions. I could see the hope sparkling in their eyes, like they knew everything was going to be okay. But at the same time, I could tell they were a little nervous to get too excited, as the unknown was lurking in the back of our minds, slowly creeping forward.

Elwin reassured them that the treatment is doing more good than harm. He was a little shocked at how well it has done, better than he expected. Daily life has been wonderful. Before, I couldn't find a reason to smile. Now I have one—okay, fine, I have two. The treatment is helping me, and so is Keefe.

I had tears of joy watching his reaction. His embrace was like nothing I've experienced before. As he held me close, I felt an overwhelming sense of warmth and love. It was as if time stood still, and in that embrace, I found a sense of peace and belonging that I had never known before. His reaction, filled with genuine emotion, made me realize just how much he cares. It was a moment I will cherish forever, a memory etched in my heart.

I woke up to the gentle hum of my alarm, feeling a newfound energy coursing through my veins. My mornings, once sluggish and filled with dread, now begin with a sense of anticipation. I stretch, savoring the absence of pain that used to greet me every morning. The sunlight streaming through the window feels warmer, more inviting, as if it's welcoming me to a new chapter of my life.

My daily routine has transformed dramatically. Instead of the slow, careful movements that used to define my mornings, I now start my day with a brisk walk around the neighborhood. The fresh air and the rhythmic sound of my footsteps invigorate me, setting a positive tone for the day. The world seems more vibrant, the colors more vivid, as if I'm seeing everything through a new lens.

With my improved health, I can now participate in activities I once only dreamed of. I take up cycling, enjoying the freedom and exhilaration of riding through the park. The wind in my hair, the rush of speed, it all feels like a celebration of life. Weekends are no longer spent indoors; instead, I go hiking with friends, exploring trails and marveling at the beauty of nature. My parents, who had grown accustomed to my declining invitations, are thrilled to see me so active and engaged.

"Look at you, Sophie! Leading the pack!" Edaline teases as we hike up a steep trail.

I laugh, "I know, right? Who would have thought?"

My parents, who used to worry constantly, now smile with relief and pride. They notice the sparkle in my eyes and the strength in my voice. Family dinners are filled with laughter and lively conversations, as I share stories of my new adventures.

"You should have seen the view from the top of the hill," I say excitedly. "It was breathtaking!"

My improved health has not only changed my daily routine but has also deepened my connections with those around me. I feel a renewed sense of purpose and joy, embracing each day with gratitude and enthusiasm.

As I sit by the window, watching the sun dip below the horizon, I can't help but reflect on the past few months. The relief I've experienced has been nothing short of miraculous. Each day, I wake up with a sense of gratitude, cherishing the simple joys of movement and activity that I once took for granted. The pain that used to be my constant companion has faded, replaced by a newfound vitality.

Yet, amidst this joy, a shadow of fear lingers. What if this relief is only temporary? The thought of returning to my former state of discomfort and limitation is daunting. I try to push these fears aside, focusing instead on the present and the progress I've made. But they are always there, lurking in the back of my mind.

Despite these fears, I've grown in ways I never imagined. This journey has taught me resilience and the importance of hope. I've learned to appreciate the small victories and to celebrate each step forward, no matter how small. My relationships have deepened, and I've discovered a strength within myself that I didn't know existed.

I've also realized the importance of self-care and listening to my body. This experience has made me more attuned to my needs and more compassionate towards myself. I now understand that health is a precious gift, one that requires nurturing and attention.

Dr. Vacker, my primary physician, sits down with me to discuss my recent improvements. "Sophie, your progress has been remarkable," he begins, a smile on his face. "The combination of medication adjustments, and your commitment to a healthier lifestyle has played a significant role in your temporary recovery."

He explains that my condition, while chronic, can have periods of remission where symptoms significantly decrease. "Your current improvement might be temporary, but it's a positive sign that your body is responding well to the treatments. So, it's looking like we will have a much better chance at getting that cure for you."

Dr. Vacker also mentions the importance of continued monitoring and adjustments. "We'll keep a close eye on your progress and make any necessary changes to your treatment plan. It's crucial to maintain this momentum and not overexert yourself."

My temporary improvement has brought joy and hope to me and my loved ones. The changes in my daily routine and the activities I can now enjoy have strengthened my relationships and boosted my confidence. However, the journey is far from over.

As I continue to navigate the ups and downs of my condition, I remain hopeful. "I'm ready for whatever comes next," I say, determination filling my bones. The future holds uncertainty, but with the support of my medical team and loved ones, I am prepared to face it head-on.

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Eh....kind of a filler chapter to be honest. Hope you enjoy. :) 

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-Ella