HATE TO LOVE YOU || TAEKOOK || JIKOOK || MAFIA AU

[𝓢𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓽 𝓹𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓱𝓮𝓼]³⁵

The way I feel that JK wrote "I hate you" So true for me to relate it to my book.

"Hating you is the only way it doesn't hurt😭" I'm so goner for the lyrics.

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Jungkook always knew himself that he was a strange mix, powerful yet sensitive, strong yet vulnerable, unwavering yet scared, unloving yet capable of love. How these complex emotions, like sensitivity, fear, and love, had found their way to him?

Of course through Taehyung.

Before Taehyung, Jungkook had no weakness. He had responsibilities but never felt possessive, he had a brother to protect, but never had true a family.

Taehyung changed everything in his life, he gave jungkook a sense of belonging, a heartful family which ravenette had always dreamed of.

Tae had become a part of him, his heart, his soul, his very being. So when Namjoon teased him calling a coward for fearing Taehyung's anger, Jungkook didn't mind at all.

He knew that fear came from love, from the selfish need to protect what mattered most to him. Taehyung was a part of him, so protecting him meant protecting himself. In a way, Jungkook was selfish, but that selfishness was born out of fondness, emotions and love, only a definition of love that mattered to jungkook.

As his mother had left him early in life, and love after her, felt like an abstract concept, distant and unreachable.

But when Taehyung came into his life, Jungkook felt his heart was alive. It could still melt and be soft.

And it's true when they say true love doesn't need to be defined. It's simply the realization of having a heart beating inside you, a love as pure as a newborn baby, as free of filth, as unconditional as a warm, endless embrace.

For Jungkook, that was Taehyung, something that didn't need to be defined by the world's standards. Only if he was able to register that it was his true love .

The feelings he felt by staying those days in the darkness of the cell, away from taehyung he felt even if he chose to stay single forever, taehyung was enough for him to live his life to the fullest. He didn't want anyone else.

But jungkook was actually mistaken previously when Jimin had entered his life, shifting his perspective on love. Jungkook had started to see love through the world's lens, filled with desires, lust, and wants.

Jungkook forgot that the bond he desired wasn't confined to sex or control. He forgot that the walls of the red room he had built were meant to cage someone he could hold close forever, not someone who would exploit his emotions and make fun of them on name of a revenge.

Yes, Jimin had woken up the desires in him those jungkook had abandoned to be fulfilled. Which was he realizing to look at the beads in his hand, those were like salt on raw wounds.

Jungkook remembered the night he had torn Jimin's pure white shirt in a moment of passion and lust, eager to strip him naked. The beads had been ripped off from the fabric and scattered on the floor. Later, when Jimin had drifted off to sleep after their intense sex, Jungkook found those beads hiding behind the furniture. In that moment, he had decided to collect them preciously, not knowing they would become painful reminder of nothing but regret.

His desires those were meant to abandoned since day one because Jungkook knew they will take him away from taehyung,

He knew his such bond with someone would create distances between him and his baby.

And it will hurt taehyung because he had raised younger in his own hands, had taken care of him from so close, he was very well aware of every emotion that was part of taehyung's character. And possessiveness was on the top.