The Feeling Asks Why?

"Why Can't I Stop Thinking About Him?" - Ben

I ended up walking all the way back to where my camper is parked on the outskirts of our small town. A feeling of annoyance washes over me. "Why's town so far away from my damn camper ugh. I wish I didn't have to walk so much but it's whatever I guess it's good exercise."

As I approach my camper I watch as something darts behind it. "Is that Anton?" My heart skips a beat out of excitement and fear as I suddenly break out into a sprint to see around the side of my camper parked in a tiny little campsite next to the woods. As I turn the corner I see a bear run into the shrubs to the side of my camper. "Oh..."

I feel a twinge of disappointment as I watch the bear run into the forest as my hopes had been crushed. "I want to see him again." I go around the camper to the front and click open the cool blue door that opens into my tiny kitchen placed in the middle of the camper. I step up and close the door behind me.

"I'm so tired."

I sigh as I walk over to my bed and fall onto it and just let myself decompress fully. I feel the soft fur of my sheets envelope my body slowly. "Maybe I should make something to eat, I will in a bit." I notice how cozy the bed is and I end up just falling quietly asleep in a fetal position as I hug the covers colored a very cute blue.

I'm standing in the middle of a field and I see so many beautiful flowers around me, it brings my mind to ease. "Am I in a flower field?" I start to walk around and the flowers smell so nice, I notice lavender and go to smell it. "That reminds me of Anton."

"Hello! Ben is that you?!"

I hear someone call out to me from my right side so I turn to look. "I feel like I recognize him from somewhere..."

"Oh my god, Anton?!"

I yell out in surprise and pure joy as I start to run over to him, I stop right in front of him almost losing my balance. He catches me and holds me still so I don't fall.

"Yes, it's me the one and only."

I hug him and notice how good he smells as I rest my head into his shoulder and embrace him, I feel his arms wrap around me and pull me tighter. "He smells so good and feels so warm. I want to be in his embrace forever." We stay there for some time and just hold each other experiencing the sweet touch and warm atmosphere surrounding us as the smell of flowers wafts all around us from the blowing wind.

"Hey, can we do this again sometime?"

I pull away a bit and look up at him to lock eyes with him feeling this sense of excitement as our eyes lock.

"Of course we can. That's why I'm here isn't it?"

Without a single word he pulls me back in and kisses the top of my head. My heart begins to race and I feel an unusual feeling inside of my heart. "Oh my god I am in love with this man." The realization hits me, I need Anton.

Suddenly I see in front of me the blue sheets that cover my bed in my camper. "I swear I just had a dream about something important. Whatever, I can't remember anyways."

I get up and groggily open the mini fridge placed next to the counter and microwave as I scratch my messed up hair. I pull out a frozen macaroni meal then pop it in for a few minutes. "I wonder what Anton is doing. Wait no just forget about it Ben, worry about yourself."

The microwave beeps shocking me out of thought, I click the microwave open and take it out. As I take it out the smell of cheese floods out into my camper and I suddenly feel very hungry. "I could eat a horse right now." I pull open the thin plastic packaging all the way off and push my fork into it then take a bite. "This is so good. I needed this."