*3 minutes later*
Harry's heart was still aching, but he physically didn't have any more tears left in him. He gently nudged Lupin's chest, indicating that he had something to say. Remus, ever the epitome of patience and calmness, slowly backed away and gazed at Harry's downcast face. Finally, Harry's mouth began to move.
"I...where should I start..?"
"Could you please elaborate on what you mean, Harry?" asked Remus, who was slightly confused by Harry's question.
"I'm not really sure what to talk about..."
"Oh- well in that case Harry, would you mind telling me about what has been causing you such...distress?"
There it was again, that deep, trustworthy gaze in Remus' hazel-hued eyes.
"I'm not even sure anymore...At first, it was multiple small things just piling up.. but after a certain point, it became like a..habit. Professor...my mind feels plagued.. I no longer need a 'reason' to feel this way, it's just how my brain functions. My mind...it feels like it's trapped in a deep crevice with no way out... I..I can't help it anymore... I'm scared.." Harry's eyes glistened with unshed tears and agony, and he truly was scared..of his own mind.
"Harry, have you ever felt...suicidal..?" Remus knew the answer to this question as well as Harry. He also knew it was a blunt but unavoidable question with an obvious answer. But Harry has to say the words himself. After all, you can't solve anything without properly acknowledging it first.
"...yes"
"Is there anything your mind constantly tells you that might be causing such thoughts...?"
"It..I just always end up thinking about how everything's too...hard. Everything..I see no future for myself, and ending it would be so much easier...and I'd finally find peace.." Harry continues as tears well up and looks at Remus in the eyes "I want to stop hurting... I want to..stop suffering..."
Remus gently puts a hand on Harry's shoulder and whispers "Harry, you have done so well... I'm so proud of you for making it this far." Well, that was definitely unplanned. Remus doesn't know why he just said that, but something in him tells him that..he wanted to hear those words when he was younger.
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(Will continue writing on the same chapter, need some time to scratch up ideas but wanted to update asap_sorry for the wait T^T)
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With the help of Remus Lupin
FanfictionThe famous Harry Potter is in his 3rd year of Hogwarts. His life? Not as perfect as people think it is. His self esteem has dropped so low that it possibly can't get any lower. He has discovered a new way to comfort himself, but is it necessarily a...
