Back to Black- Draco Malfoy

19| everything I wanted

I sit up sweating and trying to calm down. My breath is out of my reach and right on the edge of slipping farther away. It's been weeks since I had my last nightmare, its like it's getting stronger past every night.

To avoid waking up Astoria and Pansy, I slowly start to make my way out of the dorm, making sure to grab my wand. Along with me, I also grab my blanket and Draco's quidditch sweater he let me borrow a week or so ago.

As I start to make my way down to the common room, I feel a lightheaded sensation in my head, which makes me stop in my tracks on the stairs. It hurt like hell but I have to keep walking before I get caught by a prefect lurking in the halls.

I finally reach the couch in the common room and position myself half laying down in front of the fireplace. The fire glow is soothing to say the least, comforting to say the most. It reminds me of my father, although that could go two different ways.

Whether it reminds me of him because of his fiery spirit or the way everything seems to burn in his path that I love. The thoughts that I'm having seem to make my lightheadedness hurt even more, like I'll pass out any second.

Sinking into the couch causes me to flutter my eyes a little bit before I here a creak from behind me. I know I'm not supposed to be our after hours but it wasn't my fault, I couldn't sleep and I sure as hell couldn't keep myself in that room with risking waking up the girls I share it with.

I duck behind the couch cushions so I hopefully won't be spotted, but it doesn't seem to work in my favor as a person approaches me. When they stand in front of me I roll my eyes and sigh heavily because it's always him.

Sometimes I forget Malfoy is a prefect and has to look in the corridors for stragglers, such as myself tonight. I can feel his eyes on me, and the worried expression in his face says it all. He's concerned if I'm doing okay or not...like somethings wrong with me.

We just sit there in silence. No talking. He takes a seat on the cushion next to me, and before I can speak, he pulls me down to lay on his chest. I slightly gasp but recover quickly. My body adjusts to his immediately, almost like a perfect puzzle.

Entranced by his scent, I put my head in his neck, which causes him to shudder. His hand starts to run through my hair and glide across my back, making me feel comfortable but also vulnerable.

"I've been putting off reading the most recent letters from my father. After what happened yesterday, I don't want to be associated with him right now or anything to do with it for that matter." I break the silence and stay put in his arms.

As I'm laying on his chest, I can hear his heartbeat getting faster. My fingers instinctively reach across his chest and play with his prefect robes. It's nice to lay in his arms, distracts me from all the crazy shit going on around here.

"I could care less about Sirius, Briar. Just tell me what the whole situation with Krum was about today." He says with a hint of concern. I let out a sigh and start to explain what happened, I can feel him tensing up and getting angry.

I sit up and look at him, his expression immediately softens at the sight of me, and he relaxes with me in his arms. I place my head back where it was and pull the blanket over us. At this point I believe he won't write me up.

Right before I fall asleep in his arms, he places a kiss on my forehead, making me secretly smile. I get rid of the smile as quickly as possible before he can spot it. I can't give him the light of day with that kind of stuff.

"Goodnight pretty girl. Sleep better." I hear him mumble before squeezing me closer to him. I instinctively wrap my arms around him tighter to get comfortable and as close as possible.

I mumble words back but too inaudible to understand. I can tell he got the point when he let himself relax as well in my arms. We both ended up falling sleep in the span of 10 minutes.

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I quickly sat up, placing my hands and arms on Draco's chest and hyperventilating. He instantly wakes up and looks concerned. He grabs me and places me back against his chest while muttering the same calming words over and over again.

"Briar it's okay...it's okay...it's just a nightmare...it's gonna be okay...just breathe okay? Just breathe." He spits out. I take his advice and breathe as clearly as I possibly can.

I'm tired of the nightmares that are placed in my head and he can tell. For some reason, he knows how to calm me down. Exhausted from working myself up, I place my forehead against his and breathe more regularly.

Thanks to Draco, I didn't have a major freak out again throughout the night, only the once. Maybe it's the words he said to me, or the way he's holding onto me like if he let go I would run away. Whatever it is, made me feel immune to whatever nightmares were headed my way.

I just don't get how my dad could hate him, he takes care of me and cares about me deeply. My thoughts soon send me off to sleep, a really good sleep, better than I've had in days.

You could say everything was fine and solved between me and him. Although, the big argument involving him and my father had me thinking, if it came down to it..which one would I choose?

It didn't currently matter to me as I fluttered my eyes open to the early morning in Hogwarts. I expected Draco to be under me sleeping, but instead it's like he had vanished. He was no where to be found and I was just left in the common room with nothing besides blanket engulfing me fully.

I look to my side and see a small piece of paper. As I unravel it, I read what it says and it explains absolutely nothing to me,

Thanks for opening up to me last night about Krum. Now that you told me, he won't be saying anything anymore.

Yours truly,
          Draco Lucius Malfoy