love after loss🦋.

chapter 18.

jackie🌸.

"hey" i said as i walked into kiare's room.

"what do you want jackie ?" she asked making me sigh.

"i wanna talk" i said sitting on her bed.

"well i have nothing else to say so."

"kiare im sorry yk i had to tell mom and dad. a eating disorder is so serious and ik i haven't been there for you but i still care about you" i said.

"yeah ik" she mumbled.

"look i get it i wasn't that big sister you could call on when you needed me most and im sorry. i was so focused on making it out so you have food and i could help mom and dad. but i promise if you give me another chance i will do better" i said.

"im not mad at you. im just scared because we never had food but when i eat it makes me feel guilty and I throw it back up" she said.

"you don't have to feel guilty sis. ik it might be hard but you gotta eat. it's normal and you deserve to eat as much as you want" i said holding her hands.

"im sorry for what i said & yelling.. ik you care i just felt like i was losing you even more" kiare said.

"you will never lose me kiare.. your my baby sister and i gotta take care of you. you will always have me and kelsey too. even when im busy i will call you that night" i said.

she smiled at me and hugged me tightly. it was much needed because ik my sisters really going through it right now with her eating disorder.

we missed a lot of time with each other because i was so focused on basketball and trying to help our family.

"i love you forever sis" i said.

"i love you" she said as someone knocked on the door.

"come in" i said.

"hey guys i brought donuts" kelsey said smiling

"awww y'all made up ! so proud of you guys" kelsey said hugging us.

"thank you baby.. and thank you for the donuts. kiare and i is starving right ?" i asked.

"yess" she smiled.

she set the donuts down and we all grabbed one. i watched as kiare struggled.

"hey it's okay.. you deserve it! you gotta eat" i said and she smiled at me.

i watched as she took a bite.. she looked so happy and i love that.

"see food loves you" kelsey said making her giggle.

"so when am i getting a nice/nephew ?" kiare asked making me choke. i patted my chest and coughed.

"woahh slow down kiare. i wanna get married first then we start the process of children. im really focused on the team right now" i said.

"kelsey ?" kiare asked as she stared at the wall deeply in her thoughts.

"ohh well i really do want kids soon because im 30 now but yk ofc jack wants to play basketball so" she said making me look at her.

"what does that supposed to mean ?"

"what i just said" kelsey said getting on her phone.

"are you trying to call me selfish ?" i asked.

"if the shoe fits, were it cinderella" she said getting up.

"kels we're not done with this conversation"

"hey wait.. can i have another donut ?" my sister asked smiling.

"ofc take as many as you want!" kelsey said. i smiled and nodded at her.

"baby im not selfish okay im just not ready to give up basketball yet" i said.

"sure" she said.

"you fr ? and that makes me selfish ??"

"you don't understand jackie" kelsey said huffing.

"then help me understand baby. tell me what's the problem so i will understand." i said.

"your young okay and im getting older and i don't wanna have kids so late" kelsey said.

"omg kels im 3 years younger than you. i get it you feel old because your 30 but your not. we will be fine your bones move like your 20 so stop" I said making her laugh.

"im sorry i called you selfish.. i get it" she said hugging me.

"it's okay.. ik how you been feeling since you turned 30 lol. your not old" i said as we laughed.

kelsey❤️‍🩹.

"ugh home sweet home" i said laying in jackie's bed.

"i miss your family already tho" i said making her smile.

after changing she got into bed beside me and i quickly cuddled up to her body.

"how's kiare doing now that she went to the doctor ?" i asked.

"she's good. still working towards eating more like she's supposed to and acting keeping it down her throat but i think she can do it" jackie said making me smile as i nodded my head.

"im so glad your closer with your dad and sister" i said.

"me too. i feel like i missed out on so much with her but im glad we fixed it" she said.

"hey so you don't have any siblings ?" jackie asked.

"no.. i guess that's why im attached to kiare. because she's the sister i've always wanted" i said making her nod.

"well.." i added making her look at me.

"i had a sister" i said quickly.

"had ?" jackie asked holding my hands.

"yeah she died when i was 7" i said making her gasp.

"omg baby.. i had no idea are you okay ? do you wanna talk about it ?".

"yes im okay i've definitely excepted it now. but um she drowned while bathing. my dad left her unattended and she drowned." i said.

"awww omg" jackie said hugging me.

"why didn't you tell us ?"

"i mean almost everyone knows but it's not something i really like to talk about" i said and she nodded.

"well just know you will always have me. the team and you have my parents and kiare no matter what."

"thank you" i said.

"ofc.. how old was she ? if you don't mind me asking".

"5. that's why my parents divorced. after she passed it took a toll on their relationship and they divorced. my dad felt like my mom blamed him which she never did but the guilt was huge" i said.

"okay well im gonna go get ice cream and i will tell you funny stories about kiare and you can tell me the rest whenever your ready" she said making me smile.

"okay". she walked downstairs and got ice cream and came back.

"i love you" i mumbled.

"i love you more mama. yk you will always have me" jackie said kissing my forehead.

we ate ice cream and jackie told me stories about her and kiare when they were younger. and unbeknownst to us they were so bad lol.

chapter 18🥳! ahh jackie and kiare decided to get it together and act like sisters lol. now we see why kelsey loves kiare 🥹🥹! vote and comment💋!