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Chilchilz X

Lynn's flashback...

Two years ago...

As I entered the classroom, i could hear how loud the crowds were in that place. All i could see was people were hand-shaking each other as if they found their long distance friends after such a long time.

Probably because a bunch of new students that mostly are younger than them were entering that classroom to start their first day in university as a freshman. And that was me. That day was my first day in this university.

I have two friends that i have known from high school (two female friends of them now) so it didn't feel so awkward to be a new student here. I have always glued to them and they have always glued to me. Even if they found new friends (Gunwook and two other male friends of them now), i would always be included.

As time went by, we were getting close. Until one day, someone came to class a little later than the right time.

She was bowing nonstop towards the lecturer that was already in the class with a bright smile. She's giving the most pure smile towards that lecturer before she looks for an empty seat. I could see that, that lecturer was shaking her head with a slight smile after seeing that person.

At that time, i felt like this lecturer was the most beautiful person who has ever existed. Just like everyone, they all fell for this lecturer's beauty. It's Yooyeon Saem who is just 5 years older than me. Then, i looked at that person who was finding her seat.

As i remembered, this is the first time i could actually see that person because before this it was too crowded to focus on one person. And as i remembered, that person was with that group of friends at the back. But as i looked at them, there were no empty seats saved for that person. Plus, last time, i saw this person hanging out with a different group of friends, but now she's with someone else.

Then, i saw her sitting on the empty seat in the front which was usually avoided by everyone since it's too close to the lecturer. But since it's Yooyeon Saem's class now, that front seat is almost full and leaving one seat left for that person.

She sat and made her comfortable with a notebook and a pencil case on the table. She straightened her back and excitedly waited for this class to start. Also, she was still smiling so brightly towards Yooyeon Saem and Yooyeon Saem just smiled slightly while trying to hide it.

It really felt kinda weird that time, but i didn't bear any attention since they're still no one to me. Still no one to me 'yet'.

As time went by, i saw that person who is called Kim Nakyoung wandering around the class in the free time to try to find someone who could get her as one of their group mates. After that day where she was late, i found myself always attracted to her presence. She had a very big presence that made it easy for me to find her everywhere she was. That was how i could notice how she was trying hard to find her circle.

She was friendly and vulnerable towards everyone. She is known by everyone and even my friends have already talked to her a few times. But none of them actually stick to her.

Until one day, i saw her walking with someone. Perhaps someone who was in our class too since i couldn't actually remember everyone in it. Probably to go home since it was usually the time for it. They were talking with each other with loud and low tones, showing that they were enjoying their conversations.

I was always observing since i don't really like to talk even though my friends were talking so excitedly. Since i was sitting in a group of friends under the roof of a resting house, i was barely seen by her even if i was watching her. At that time, i felt relieved that she finally found a friend.

But then suddenly, a group of friends called that one person to come with them. Then, that person said goodbye to Naky unnie and left her. She came to that group of friends and hung out again.

At that time, i saw Naky unnie waved back at that person while watching her get further. Then, she stood still. She was facing down before her lips slowly smiled. Probably to give comfort to herself.

At that time, i didn't know why i was the one who felt flustered. As if i'm the one who can't actually find my circle and i'm the one who would be everyone's second choice every time their friends were not with them.

Then, days have passed and the next assignment was assigned to us, i found her trying to find a new circle again. I was actually observing her. Openly and obviously. I just could feel how lonely she must have felt while trying to find her group mates. Unlike other people, they would probably stop finding and volunteer to do that assignment alone instead but this person just didn't know how to give up.

She was wandering around again and was smiling towards everyone as she asked if they had any vacant position for her. I couldn't even stop moving my head because she didn't stop moving from other groups to other groups.

I hate it the more i watch her. I hate how everyone could resist that smile. I hate everyone for letting her wander around again and again. I hate how determined she was. I hate the fact that only six people for one group was always the same for every assignment, making her avoid my group because she was sure that my group was always full. I hate that i couldn't stop looking at her. I hate the fact that i felt so bad for her.

Until at some point, i stood up in the middle of my friends that were discussing. I walked towards the lecturer with a straight motive. I have a request. No, i have a mission to complete. I asked him if my group could have seven people before i went back to my seat as I got the answer.

No, i didn't go back to my seat, but i went to get her. The person who was wandering around with a smile that was probably just me who couldn't resist it.

As i got close to her, she looked at me with a confused face. Her confused face looked more vulnerable than anything else in this world. As i looked at her in the eyes, all i could feel that time, that i wanted to protect this vulnerable person for as long as i could. Forever or for the time as long as she's still with me.

Then, i started to open my mouth as she looked so confused in front of the group of friends that just rejected her.

"Nakyoung nim, you can join my group", i gave her the sweetest smile, as much as i could reassure her.

Then, i grabbed her wrist and assisted her to my group of friends. At that time, her small and fragile wrist was all i wanted to hold for a long time. For the next day, for the next week, for the next month, for the next year and forever as i could.

As i brought her to my group, my friends were all just shocked that i finally brought her to our group after a long time. They were all convincing me to bring Naky unnie to the group since they have noticed how interested i am towards her since before.

From that time on, we were getting closer and eventually became a group of seven. At that time, I felt so grateful that i brought Naky unnie to my group of friends and be friends with her. She's the only one who is in semester 3 among us who are just semester 1 but she's not the only one older. At that time, i felt that i could have Naky unnie all by myself and i realized the most beautiful person is not Yooyeon Saem anymore.

To be continued...