Just in a day

Tira

I feel the smell of medicines, syringes, antiseptic floor cleaner and that god awful hospital gown that they give you for the last time as the doctor finally removes my IV insulin and puts a clean bandage on my hand. ‘You're good to go. I know how painful it has been for you but again you’ve been my favourite patient and I don't think i can actually say this but you truly have been the strongest one’ said Dr. Shah while giving me the warmest smile. I hugged him in return and I know that it might not be professional but I needed that and I know he won't mind as he is the one who has been treating me for the last 21 years. Wow , 21 years. I've spent my whole life fighting this disease. For once i thought it was gone but nope it didn’t happen. However, today is the last day of all these things and I'm finally free. I told my parents to meet me at the gate as for the last time I would like to thank all the staff that has been with me for the last 21 years. They honestly are like family to me as I've spent more birthdays here than at my own house. I said goodbye to all the staff and Rhea cried and then Mrs. Patty and then everybody including me. ‘They better be happy tears or i would be genuinely pissed’ i said while laughing. ‘They are. It’s just that we love you and we will  miss you but darling are you-’
‘Mrs. Patty everything will be fine, and i'm fine and you don't have to worry about me anymore and really glad that i have you in my life , all of you actually. Thankyou for giving me peace and laughter and for making my 12th birthday iron-man themed and for all the love you've given me. I couldn't have done it without you. I Love you’
That was my goodbye to the staff and of course all of us cried again. I opened the door of my dads car and I sat in the back seat and before they could ask me anything I told them my farewell story of the hospital. My mom asked me if i want to spend the day as i asked them before and i said yes and then my dad asked me again if i was sure it i just want to go home and rest for a while.
‘I've been resting my whole life dad, please I'm tired of all the resting,’ I said.
‘Okay honey, I’m sorry,’ he replied.
Soon the car took a final turn and then stopped and I  finally felt like I'm living. The big wooden door along with the patio that looked like it was made of wood but when looked closely you will realise that it's not. I said bye to my parents and then told them I will be home before 11pm. I walked up the stairs to the wooden door and took a deep breath. I just couldn’t believe I was standing in front of ‘The literary lantern Bistro’. As someone who has spent most of her life watching dead poets' society and reading dark academia books, this place was perfect. ‘The literary lantern’ was a dark academia themed cafe which had two sections. One section was there in which they had all the old movie CDs and the other one was the books section. The book section had all kinds of books, from classics like Kafka, Dostoevsky to all the modern authors.
I opened the door and stood there for a second to let all the overwhelmedness I'm feeling sink in and  then walked up straight to the books section and took a seat and as soon as the waiter arrived I ordered the one thing that I always wanted to have in this particular place.
‘I would like to order “oh captain, my captain combo”.
‘Sure, anything else?’
‘No, thankyou’.
I will never forget this moment. I love my life.
I finally love my life.