Just in a day

TIRA

The food was heaven, it was the best sandwich, the best coffee i have ever tasted. Rivaan did the best thing by ordering the dessert and let me tell you that this tiramisu is the most delightful thing i have ever eaten. I ate so much that I demanded a 10 minute rest before getting up to leave.
‘God, I hate you for making me eat so much’ I said getting up.
‘No, you don't T, in fact you loved the food’. He grinned
‘I did but I ate a lot’ . I said as we walked towards the counter to pay the bill.
‘No you didn't, and Tira put down your wallet you are not paying the bill’. He said , no he told me.
‘But I-’
‘No T, You are not paying and no we are not splitting’. He said as he took out his card and gave it to the cashier.
‘Okay , I'm sorry, don't be pissed’. I said reaching for his arms pulling his jacket.
‘I'm not pissed , I took you here so it's my responsibility’. He laughed.
‘Okay fine’.
We walked out of the restaurant and the rain had stopped but it was still windy. We walked towards the car when he said,
‘You know i like you right?’
‘What?’
‘I hope you know that I like you, that I don't take anyone out like this, that you are special to me and I don't want you to answer that right now and the offer we made earlier that if you dont wanna see me after today i won't bother you still stands.  I just want to let you know how I feel about you.’ He said.
‘Uh-huh , okay’ I replied.
That's all I could say, I'm such an idiot. He has done everything to make me happy from the very start and the only thing i could say to his heartfelt confession was uh-huh, okay?
God, I hate myself right now. Why is it so difficult for me to accept the truth? I know how I feel about him, I know how his slightest touch makes my heart spark. I know that the things I feel for him will not fit in the ‘like’ category. I know it's more than that , that he is so much more than what I deserve, that he deserves much better and so it's better if i stay silent. It's just two more places and then I will tell him that it's over, that it's the end.
That I will miss him, that I don't want this to end, that i lov-.