𝑺𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒚 ||Thomas x reader|| 𝓣𝓜𝓡

021- Void

Y/n's Pov:
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"Hey, wake up." The words make my eyes flutter open.

"C'mon we have to go."

"Newt?" I whisper into the darkness, willing my eyes to adjust. Brain still foggy.

"Get up now!"

I frantically search my surrounding for the source of his voice. Its so clear, he must be in the corner. I hear it reverberating off the walls. He must've found me. He's getting me out.

Pitch black still meets my gaze and I stumble to stand, my hands reaching out in-front of me instinctively. There are no obstacles in my way.

"Newt! Where are you!" I respond blindly feeling my way across the area.

"Over here! God, Y/n hurry!" A new sense of desperation fills his voice as I stumble further into the darkness.

"I'm trying to find you, don't move!" I reach a hard concrete wall and feel my way across it, looking for any kind of light switch or door handle.

"It's coming! Please, we don't have much time!" He's pleading now, raw horror lodging itself in his throat.

"I- I don't know where you are." I yell, desperate for any hint of his location.

"It's clo-" He screams. A wet sound fills the room.

Silence.

"Newt?" I whisper. My brain nearly explodes.  This can't be happening. I heard him, he was so close to me.

"Newt!" I yell this time.

Nothing greets me.

"Just say something so I know where you are!" I try, falling to my knees now and feeling across the floor for something... anything.

My hand brushes a warm and wet liquid.

I go still.

"No." I gasp, crawling further across the floor. The trail continues and I follow, the substance coating my knees now.

This isn't blood I tell myself. It's not Newt's blood across the floor. Its the grievers blood, Newt stabbed it. He had too. He's fine.

Then the trail stops and I hit a door. I feel the metal doorknob in my wet and sticky hands. I push down yet it doesn't budge.

I stand up and put my whole weight into the door, shoving myself into it. I need to get it open, Newt is behind there. He needs my help.

Frustration rips through me as I slam my shoulder in the door while pushing down the handle. Over and over. I barely register the pain.

"Newt! I'm coming! Just hold on!" I continue. barreling my full weight into the metal. Several moments later not a dent is made.

I slide down the doors, clutching my mangled shoulder.

Tears stream down my face, my hands claw at the door like I'll somehow be able to scratch my way through.

"I'm sorry." I whimper. Head falling against the metal in exhaustion and shame.

I'm sorry I couldn't find you.

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"What did you do?"

My head snaps up from the cold concrete floor.

"Thomas?" I whisper into the darkness.

"What did you do?" He repeats. My confusion spikes. How did he find me? Why wasn't he with Newt?

"I didn't do anything. Newt- he was just here. Oh god, Thomas you have to help me. We have to get through this door. Where are the others? Newts somewhere out there all alone with a griever-"

"No he's not." He cuts me off abruptly.

"What?" My pulse quickens.

"You're too late Y/n." Thomas speaks, void of any emotion. The emptiness in his tone cuts through me.

"N-no we're not. Newt is capable of more than you may think. We have to try." I plead. Im not going to give up so easily. Newt is clever and quick when he wants to be.

"No you don't understand Y/n. Newt's gone. He's gone because you didn't get to him in time. You didn't open that door in time. He bled out."

Time seems to stop for a moment, my brain becoming foggy, my heart thumping loudly. I almost can't breathe.

I feel my heart getting ripped out of my chest and being stabbed by one hundred daggers, desperation pooling through my entire body. Newt my best friend, my brother, my family.

"I tried to get to him. But he was always out of reach I-"

"Please just stop with the excuses. He's dead. Couldn't you have been quicker? Stronger?"Betrayal finds its way into his previously empty voice. That perhaps is worse than the void from before.

A sob wracks it's way through my body. Why couldn't I have been quicker? Stronger? More aware? How could I let my family die?

My hand grasps onto the floor, the other at my chest. I feel a whole opening itself wide, stretching me apart and tearing grief through me. Tears sting my eyes and pool into my vision, the darkness still surrounds me.

"I'm so sorry." I wail, heaving at this point.

"Stop with the apologies. Nothing you say can undo what happened."

"Why are you being so cruel?" I whimper. His word only slice me deeper, chopping up my soul into little pieces.

"Cruel? This is cruel? Newt's death is cruel. And it happened because of you. Look- We nearly escaped, we nearly had our happy ending. Now you've just screwed everything up." He spits. I hear his footsteps stomp farther away from me.

"W-where are you going?" I manage to say, breath uneven and ragged.

"To get away from you."

Me heart truly fractures.

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Hey guys....

Soooo it's been a little while! Sorry for like ghosting you, but I'm a junior now so I had to lock tf in for school. I didn't really have any time or motivation for this story especially since I'm taking english and have enough stuff to write about already. I will be trying to update like every once in a while depending on when the motivation and creativity hits me.

Love to everyone to has commented on my most recent chapters asking for updates, those really got me to get off my ass and write lmao.

Bye!- Rea❤️