Emotions

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Love is destructive.

Cold. Everything feels cold. This is one of the reasons why Khaotung hates train rides moments with First now. He felt like First the only form of escapism he had was gone. Everything about First was becoming grey and Khaotung hates it he wanted to see First smile again but he don't know how get that back.

Falling inlove is really destructive isn't it.

First always cry. Everytime they had sex he always cry making Khaotung to also cry with him because he was hurt and felt guilty for doing all of this to First.

Khaotung doesn't listen to music anymore. He found everything so depressing and sad that even music can't save him anymore. It feels like he came back to the past. Like the past repeat itself he feels lonely again even though he forced First to have sex with him many times and makes him cry Khaotung wasn't satisfied to that anymore.

Khaotung wasn't satisfied hearing First sad cry and instead of being satisfied he felt empty.

He felt nothing as he saw First crying again on the bed. Not even sad or satisfied he felt nothing.

First was naked at that time and had many bruises because of him but still Khaotung made his way towards the bed and pulled down the blanket harshly. Then grab the back of his hair just to throw him on the ground forcing him to get ready because another old men customer texted again.

"S-stop please, i don't want to go.." First cried as he snatched the blanket from Khaotung and tried to covered himself as he was now lying on the floor crying. But Khaotung didn't listen and just kick his side harshly before pulling the blanket down and threw it aside.

"Go to the bathroom and wash yourself First. Don't make me mad or you will regret it. You don't want me mad right?" Khaotung said speaking in a softer tone, not wanting First to cry anymore.

But First just shook his head. He was trembling and crying so bad it was obvious that he was scared making for Khaotung to be more annoyed and aggressive that he grabbed First wrist harshly just to drag him inside the bathroom forcing him to take a bath.

First was crying while Khaotung open the shower head making for the two of them to get wet.